Wednesday, December 31, 2008

- "2008" -

2008.
A year that full of memories.
A year that full of changes.
A year that full of happiness and sadness, laughter and tears,
success and failure.

There were TEARS on my days through 2008 because:

- I fell in love with a wrong guy at the beginning of this year. And I was hurt, again.

- It was hard when I had to pass the high school final exam. I had to study hard. Very hard. Until I was really really bored and tired. I was sick of those things. Sick of science. Sick of the tests, try-outs, courses and exercises.. Erghh.

- The Bali trip with schoolmates wasn't so fun. I was disappointed.

- I was frustrated when I had to decide what major and univ should I take. I planned to take medical major, but at the beginning of the year, my fam broke all my dreams up. They suddenly forbade me to enter the medical major, and I had to make a "three-nights-decision", choosing a new major that I had never think before. Huh.

- My brother started to work at a company. It makes him so busy and he just has a lil time to spend with me.

- I had to say goodbye to some friends.. They were leaving for study abroad.. I hated attending their farewell parties and seeing them taking off in the airport cause it made me wanna cry.. And now I miss them so muchhhhh.. Get home soon, guys.. Hope that we can spend some more days together =)
(to: Dennise Techrisna, Andreas Bernard, Anthony Lim, Chrestella Natalie, Marshella Kie, Timothy Liu, Afrizal Harimukti, Angie Valentine, Clara Oktarina, Alvin Utama)


But there were times that made me SMILE through 2008:
- I graduated from senior high school! That was the best moment of the year =)

- I found some friends that I might not notice before.. We weren't close at the beginning, but then we spent so many great times together. We hung out, we watched movies, we took pics, we studied, we laughed, we told stories, we attended the graduation rehearsals, we went to Pancious by taxi and walked for kilos wkwk.. That was so fun n unforgettable!
Thanks for listening to my problems and giving me advices.. Thank you, guys. You've made my last days at school beautiful and made me know what "friendship" really means.
(to: Dennise Techrisna, Elsa Wijaya, Fricillia Natasha, Angeline Basuki, Patricia Yohanna)


- I entered university. To be in this major and this univ is the best decision I've ever made this year.

- I did my first "get-home-by-myself" from campus by busway and angkot wkwk.. One of the great experiences and pride in my life.

- I almost died, almost crushed by a motorcycle, but God saved my life. So beautiful.

- I've learnt so many things this year. Things that made me be a better person. I've told you bout this in my blog before =)

- I learnt English more than I've ever done in my life. The more I learn it, the more I love it.

- I created my first blog on March. And I love my blog. A new place for me to scrap my days, to show my feelings, and to share my thoughts..

- My fam gets better day by day. Thank You, Lord. The biggest blessing for me =D

- I do some organizations at campus that I love so much. I've never had time to do organizations when I was at senior high school..

- I met new people that are really kind and care of me.
That's so sweet =)

(to: Ria Wulandari, Sulistia Wijaya, Junita Putri, and also the members of PDKK St. Hieronimus and Pastoran Atma Jaya)

Overall, I love 2008. It has been a better year for me than 2007.
Thank You for everything great and everything bad. Cause I know that each of them had colored my life..

"Thank You, Jesus, for Your blessings, guidance, love, care, strength, trust, and everything that You've given to me.. Let me be a better person day by day, month by month, year by year. Let me be a good girl in Your eyes.
Hold my hands through the next year, 2009, that I might not know what's gonna happen and what's waiting there for me. But one thing that I know and sure, that Your love for me would be lasts forever, and You'll never let Your eyes and hands off of me =)
I trust in You, Lord."

Thank You for this year.

Friday, December 26, 2008

- "unforgettable Xmas" -

Hei2.. Merry Xmas to U ^^

Xmas gw kali ini bener2 amat sangat melelahkan, tp jg sekaligus xmas yg tak terlupakan..
Taun ini gw menghabiskan xmas di kampus,, jadi panitia misa natal dan taun baru atma jaya.
Ini adalah kepanitiaan pertama gw di kampus hehe..
Gw blajar banyaaakkkkk banget hal2 baru dari kepanitiaan ini, khususnya cara kerja sie konsumsi (krn gw staff konsumsi).. Kedengerannya emank cm konsumsi,, tp ternyata pusing jg lho.. Ngurus makanan panitia dan petugas2 laennya slama 3 hari, dr tgl 22 ampe 24 Des, dengan jumlah makanan yg berbeda2 setiap kalinya.. Rebet jg. Ada yg gak kebagianlah, ada yg kelebihanlah, ada salah itunglah.. Macem2 masalahnya. Sampe di hari terakhir, makan malemnya kurang. Jadi mesti cepet2 mesen ke bedeng 60 biji lg. Udah jantungan takut ga bs pesen krn terlalu mendadak. Tp untungnya bs.. Mayan stres jg deh pokoknya wkwk..
Tapi dari sini gw dapet byk pengalaman dan pelajaran yg gak bs digantiin dgn apapun..
Capek bgt memang jd panitia, walopun cm konsumsi.. Krn dari tgl 19 seluruh panitia hrs uda bantuin ngedekor di kampus.. Dekorannya mpe bikin gua maria n terowongan gua di pintu masuk!!
Mantapbh abis. Mantapbh capeknya. Mantapbh pegelnya. Mantapbh teparnya. Mantapbh keram tangannya. Mantapbh pusingnya. Tapi mantapbh jg hasilnya. hahah..


*ini gua maria nya.. foto terowongannya gw blom dapet..*

Akhirnya misa natal berjalan dengan cukup lancar.. Mule jam 6, selesai jam stgh 9 kalo gak salah.. Trus panitia lgsg bongkar2 dekoran di sport hall. Gela nyesek bgt,, ngedekor stengah mati dr tgl 19, tp dibongkar cm dlm wkt stengah jam. Hikssssssssss T.T
Ga rela rasanya. huhuhu.
Panitia bahkan blom sempet foto bersama di gua marianya loh T.T
Gw jg blom sempet foto2in sendiri,, krn dah kecapean, dah ga napsu ngapa2in huhu.
Ntar deh gw coba minta sie pubdok,, smoga dapet foto2nya.. Ntar gw upload ke fs ato ke blog deh hohoho =D

Abis bongkar2,, panitia rapat evaluasi sambil makan malem.. Rapatnya br selse jam 12 malem teng!
Udah pada ngantuk n tepar gt haha..
Trus arum, mojun sama nona masi sempet diceburin ke kolam ikan!! Kasiann bgt! Bs sakit dah tu mrk.. Ga tega gw liatnya.. Tp katanya mank uda tradisi kepanitiaan atma, pasti ketua n bbrp panitia ada yg diceburin ke kolam wkwk.. Serem bgt.

Trus bsknya pas natal, tgl 25, gw sakit. Badan gw sempet meriang gt, trus batuk berdahak mpe skarang.. Dan gw menghabiskan wkt dgn istirahat seharian drmh. Sekujur badan pegel smua,, trus jari2 tangan rada keram n kaku krn ngeremes2 kertas semen mulu bwt bikin gua.. Hiks.
Padahal pas disananya gw sehat2 aja.. Pas sampe rmh jg gw masi smanget kok. Ga brasa tepar2 amat.. Ga tau knp tiba2 drop. Nasib. wkwk..
Mesti cepet sembuh ni.. Soalnya masi ada misa taun baru tgl 31.. Dan udah mesti mule ngedekor dr tgl 30nya.. Trus gw bakal nginep di kampus tgl 31 mpe 1 Jan, soalnya gak mungkin macet2an malem taun baru di jalan.. Males bgt. Mending gw nginep, trus br pulang pas tgl 1 Jan pagi, pasti ga macet hohoho =D

Ydah.. Segini aja crita gw ttg natalan taun 2008.
Have a great and wonderful Xmas ^^
Gbu.

Saturday, December 20, 2008

- "no need to be WORRY." -

Kemaren gw dapet sebuah e-mail yg isinya cukup menggampar gw. Tentang kekuatiran.
Yuph. Kuatir. Salah satu sifat buruk yg ada pada diri gw, yg sampe skarang gw masi berjuang utk mengubahnya. Tapi sangat sulit. Sangattt sulit. Mungkin kadar kekuatiran gw dah menurun jauh daripada dulu, tp hanya MENURUN, bukan MENGHILANG. Selalu masi aja ada sedikit kekuatiran dlm diri gw akan banyak hal..
Dan e-mail yg gw dapet kemaren sgt2 membuka mata gw..

Ada kalimat yang blg, "Urusan kita bukanlah untuk memperhatikan apa yang mungkin terjadi di masa depan, tetapi melihat dengan jelas apa yang ada di tangan kita pada saat ini." Kalimat itu ditulis oleh Thomas Carlyle.
Seorang pemuda bernama Sir William Osier membaca tulisan ini, lalu ia memperoleh keberanian dan menjadi professor di bidang kedokteran dan memperoleh gelar kebangsawanan dari raja Inggris.
Suatu hari ia mengatakan bahwa rahasia dari keberhasilannya adalah dengan "Hidup di hari ini." Masa depan adalah matahari yang belum terbit. Masa lalu, kuburkanlah itu. Kegagalan di masa lalu jangan dijadikan beban yang terus kita pikul hingga hari ini.
Hari penyelamatan itu adalah hari ini. Hari kesuksesan itu adalah hari ini. Masa depan itu adalah hari ini. Tidak perlu menyusahkan diri untuk hari esok.

Kekuatiran akan hari esok akan mencuri berkat kita hari ini, hal itu akan menghabiskan tenaga dan sukacita kita. Yang tersisa pada diri kita hanyalah ketakutan.
Dalam doa Bapa Kami dikatakan, "Give us THIS DAY our daily bread." Dia tidak mengajarkan untuk meminta roti untuk satu minggu, satu bulan, atau satu tahun. Dia mengajarkan, "Berikanlah kami PADA HARI INI makanan kami yang secukupnya." Itu artinya kita ga perlu kuatir akan hari esok. Besok, kita bs meminta lagi pada Tuhan, dan Ia telah menyediakannya.

Tetapi ini gak berarti bhw kita gak perlu merencanakan masa depan kt. Kt harus tetap memikirkan baik2, merencanakan, dan mempersiapkan masa depan kt. Tapi satu hal, kita gak perlu kuatir. Libatkan Tuhan dalam setiap perencanaan kita. Biarkan Dia yang memegang kendali hidup kt. Bagian kt adalah melakukan apa yang menjadi tugas kt dengan sebaik mungkin.

Jujur gw adalah orang yang kuatiran banget. Kuatir akan masa depan gw, akan kemampuan gw, akan hidup gw, dsb2. Bs dibilang hampir kuatir dalam segala hal. Gw tau bahwa kuatir itu gak baik. Ga ada hal positif yang bs diambil dari yang namanya kekuatiran. Kuatir gak akan mengubah apapun. Bukan dengan kt kuatir, lalu masalah kt akan beres. Nope. Malah kekuatiran hanya akan memperburuk keadaan. Membuat pikiran kt kemana2 dan gak fokus. Krn kuatir, kt jadi mikir yg jauh2, yang buruk2, padahal hal2 itu belum tentu terjadi.
Gw pernah baca dari buku renungan, ada research yang blg bhw 90% dari kekuatiran kt itu sebenarnya gak terjadi. Jadi itu hanya ada di dalam pikiran kt. Kenyataannya mungkin gak seburuk itu. Gak perlu kt kuatirkan juga.

Di bible, Tuhan Yesus perna blg, "Siapakah diantara kamu yang karena kekuatiran dapat menambahkan sehasta sajapada jalan hidupnya?"
Bles. Ngegampar bgt ni kata2. Gw lgsg sadar bhw, beneran, kuatir sama skali gak akan mengubah apa2. Sama skali gak ngebantu kt menyelesaikan masalah.

Mungkin kt melihat ada masalah besar di depan sana yg menanti kt. Kt merasa takut dan kuatir, kalau2 kt gak bs menyelesaikannya. Kt ngerasa bhw masalah itu terlalu besar bwt kt. Tapi sebenernya, setelah kt menjalaninya, selangkah demi selangkah, kt pasti mampu melewatinya. Mungkin berat, tapi kt pasti mampu. Karena gak ada masalah yang gak bs diselesaikan. Saat Tuhan mengijinkan kt mempunyai masalah, Dia gak akan lupa untuk menyediakan jalan keluarnya bagi kt serta memberi kita kekuatan utk melewatinya =)

Jadi mulai skarang gw akan berusaha lebih keras lagi utk menghilangkan kekuatiran gw akan apapun. Gw maw lebih lagi menyerahkan hidup gw pada Tuhan, dan jg segenap masa depan gw. Krn gw tau segala sesuatu udah Dia rencanakan begitu indah bagi gw. Gw maw blajar utk menjalani hidup ini day by day. Sehari demi sehari. Gak maw menguatirkan masalah2 di hari esok.
Krn Yesus blg ke gw, "Sebab itu janganlah kamu kuatir akan hari besok, karena hari besok mempunyai kesusahan sendiri. Kesusahan sehari cukuplah untuk sehari." (Matius 6:34)

Monday, December 15, 2008

- "You Are." -

Hari ini pertama kalinya gw bersaksi di PD BiG. Setelah hampir 5 tahun gw berada di komunitas ini, baru kali ini gw pny keberanian untuk memberi kesaksian di depan..
Bisa dibilang gw emank anak gak tau diri.
18 taon gw idup, dengan kesaksian2 nyata akan kebaikan Tuhan setiap harinya, tapi baru hari ini gw brani mensharingkannya pada tim dan umat di PD, biasanya paling cerita2 di komsel ato pada orang2 tertentu doang,, ga pernah brani di depan satu PD gini..

Jujur amat sangat sulit bagi gw utk berbicara di depan umum. Apalagi utk kasi kesaksian gt di depan sendirian sambil pegang mike. Untunglah hari ini pas gw tugas jadi singer, jadi emank posisi gw dah di depan dari awal PD, jadi pas kasi kesaksian, gw ga perlu sengaja maju2 lg.. Pas ditanya ma WLnya, "Siapa yang mau bersaksi?" Gw lgsg jawab, "Aku mauuu" hehe..
Trus tinggal duduk di posisi gw di sebelah keyboard, pegang mike gw, dan lgsg mulai bersaksi hehehe =P

Tentang apa kesaksian gw??!
Ada deh.
Sapa suruh ga dateng ke PD BiG tadi wkwk =P
Dan stlh selesai memberi kesaksian,, ada perasaan legaaaaa banget dan penuh sukacita!!!
My mood raised up. Gw merasa seperti pemenang. Hahaha. Pokoknya ternyata setelah gw membagi berkat pada orang lain dgn bersaksi, ternyata Tuhan langsung memberi hadiah pada gw: SUKACITA SURGA. Sampai sepanjang hari gw bersuka cita dan hari gw penuh dengan puji2an bagi Tuhan. Bahkan sampai subuh2 bgini, jam 2.30 pagi, gw masi merasa sukacita bgt. Bayangin aja jam sgini gw malah nulis blog dgn smangat. Wkwk..

Yang jelas Tuhan emank bener2 baik ^^
I luv this day. I luv every moments that I spent.
I luv You, Lord.
And I wanna sing this song for You =)

You are the love of my life
You are the hope that I cling to
You mean more than this world to me

I wouldn't trade You for silver and gold
I wouldn't trade You for riches untold
You are, You are my everything

I couldn't take one step without You
I could never go on
I couldn't live one day without You
I couldn't have the strength
to make it on my own.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

- "motorcycle.." -

Wadow. Pagi ini gw ujian jam 10.30.
Dan gw baru brangkat dari rumah jam 09.30 gara2 nungguin nyokap gw.. Entah kenapa, kayak ada setannya, smua jalan bwt ke kampus gw MACET! Semua. Bokap gw mpe dah muter2 nyari jalan alternatif, tapi dmana2 macet parah. Awalnya maw masuk tol, cm gw blg mending cari jalan tikus aja. Tapi ternyata di jalan2 tikus jg sama aja, kaga ngebantu jg, ga beda dari tol macetnya. Trus jam di hape gw uda nunjukin jem 09.45, gw dah deg2an n diem aja di mobil. Tinggal berdoa minta mujizat aja biar ga telat. Scara mobilnya uda bener2 ga bs gerak gt krn macet, dan gw masi di kebon jeruk wkt itu.. Ckck.

Kalo telat lebih dari 15 menit, gw ga bole ikut ujian. Padahal hari ini ujiannya salah satu mata kuliah yang paling serem, Structure I. Slama ini gw berjuang bgt blajar structure biar bs lulus n lgsg ngambil Structure II di semester pendek bln januari.. Dan semalem gw dah blajar seharian biar dapet bagus.. Trus gw mikir, masa gara2 telat ga boleh ikut ujian, trus gw jadi ga lulus Structure I, n jadwal SP gw jadi kaco gt?! Konyol bgt. Bs nyesek, nangis2 beneran gw =(

Trus gw dapet ide bagus. NAEK OJEK! hahaha.. Satu2nya kendaraan yg bisa nyelip2 diantara traffic jams hehehe =D
Akhirnya dengan berat hati bonyok gw ngijinin gw naek ojek ke atma..
Gw diturunin di pangkalan ojek di depan RS Siloam. Trus gw blg ma tukang ojeknya spy agak cepet krn gw mesti ujian jam 10.30..
Trus tukang ojeknya bener2 nurutin permintaan gw!! Dy ngebut se-ngebut2nya ke atma! Gela. Kaga berenti sama skali dari kebon jeruk mpe atma (krn ga kena lampu merah jg).. Trus nyalip kanan nyalip kiri, masuk jalur busway dsb2. Gela. Spot jantung.
Mpe ngeri gw T.T
Parah. Gw blom perna naek motor ngebut2 gt.. Stres bo.

Gw sempet mikir.. Ironis bgt ya. Slama ini gw paling benci kendaraan yg namanya "motor". Slalu jadi musuh gw dijalan. Musuh saat nyebrang,, musuh saat naek mobil. Pokoknya di mata gw motor itu slalu nyebelin dan bikin emosi. Kecil2 tapi jadi raja jalanan dan bs nyelakain orang. Dendem kesumat.
Tapi hari ini, "motor" itulah yg dah nyelametin gw ujian.. Nyelametin satu mata kuliah yg slama ini gw perjuangkan. Krn ada yg namanya motor, hari ini gw bs sampe di kampus 10 menit sblm ujian dan akhirnya bs ikut ujian dengan tenang. Kalo di dunia ini ga diciptain motor, gw yakin tadi gw pasti ga bakal nyampe kampus jam 10.30. Dan gw pasti failed di Structure I.

Gw pengen berterimakasih sih sama motor,, tapi gengsi neh.. Scara gw masi pny dendem krn nyawa gw nyaris disikat ma motor wkt itu. Dan jadi bikin gw trauma nyebrang kalo byk motor.. Tapi... Ujian gw udah dislametin. Hmm.. Gmana ya?!
Bingung neh..
Makasi.. Enggak... Makasi... Nggak... Ergh.

Makasi aja deh.
Makasi, motor... =P
Akhirnya lo pny nilai plus jg di mata gw, mot. Hehe.

Sunday, December 7, 2008

- "the QUOTES." -

Yesterday I saw the movie "FACING THE GIANTS" for the fourth time in the last 2 months.
I've never adored a movie like this before. I've watched it 4 times but I never feel bored.
Every parts, every sentences, every quotes in this movie are amazing for me. They increase my faith and my trust to the Lord.
These are some best quotes taken from this movie that I quoted randomly.
I know that most of you who don't see the movie might not understand what are written below, but I hope that you don't mind to read it. Cause these are really good words to increase your faith =)

Grant Taylor:
"The more I read this book (Bible), the more I realize life's not about us. We're not here just to get glory, make money and die. The Bible says that God put us here for Him, to honor Him. Jesus said the most important thing you could do with your life is to love God with everything you are and love others as yourself. So if we win every game and we miss that, we've done nothing. Football then means nothing. So I'm here to give you our new team philosophy. I think that football is just one of the tools we use to honor God. But see,, it's not only about football. We've got to honor Him in our relationship, in our respect for authority, in the classroom and when you're at home alone surfing the internet. I want God to bless this team, so many people will talk about what He did. But it means we gotta give Him our best in every area. And if we win, we praise Him. And if we lose, we praise Him. Either way we honor Him with our actions and our attitudes. So I'm asking you... What are you living for? I resolve to give God everything I've got, then I'll leave the results up to Him. I want to know if you'll join me."

Grant Taylor: "If the Lord never gives us children, will you still love Him?"
Brooke Taylor: "I will still love You, Lord."

Larry Childers: "You don't have to be afraid of failure. Everyone fails at one point."

Larry Childers: "David, I've asked God since you were a baby that He would show how strong He is in your life and that through you, people would see how good He is."
David Childers: "Then why would He make me so small and weak?"
Larry Childers: "To show how mighty He is."

Grant Taylor: "Lord Jesus, would You help me? Lord, I feel there's a giants of fear and failure just staring down at me, waiting to crush me and I don't know how to beat 'em, Lord. I'm tired of being afraid. Lord, if You want me to do something else, show me. If You don't want me to have children, so be it. But You're my Guide. You're on the throne. You can have my hopes and my dreams. Lord, give me something. Show me something."

Mr. Bridges: "Grant, I heard a story about 2 farmers who desperately needed rain. And both of them prayed for the rain. But only one of them went out and prepared his fields to receive it. Which one do you think trusted God to send the rain?"
Grant Taylor: "The one who prepared his fields."
Mr. Bridges:"God will send the rain when He's ready. You need to prepare your field to receive it."

Brock: "Lord, we know our lives aren't about football. But we do thank you for allowing us to play tonight. We're gonna give You our best. If we win, we'll praise You. And if we lose, we'll praise You. We'll give You all the honor and the glory this night. Keep us safe. Amen."

Mr. Bridges: "Bless them in a special way, Lord. I ask You to lift them up to You. I ask You to bring up a generation that has a heart for You, Lord."

Grant Taylor: "As long as we honor God. Nothing is impossible. Tell me, what is impossible with God?!"

Saturday, December 6, 2008

- "life is a GIFT." -

Entah knapa akir2 ini gw jadi sering berpikir ttg kematian. Serem memang. Satu hal yang tabu utk dibicarakan. Gw jg gak maw terpikir ttg hal spt itu,, tp smuanya terlintas begitu aja di otak gw..
About the death.

Pertama kali pikiran ini mulai mengganggu gw setelah gw mengalami yg namanya nyaris ditabrak motor minggu lalu.. Yang gw critain di blog gw yg judulnya "PERFECT GUIDANCE" kmrn.
Yang utk pertama kalinya dalam hidup gw, membuat gw bener2 merasa dekat dgn kematian. Sedikitttt lagi. Dan mgkn hari ini takkan pernah ada..

Sejak itu gw jadi sering berpikir dan menyadari, betapa dekatnya manusia dengan yg namanya kematian. Jika saatnya telah datang, gak ada satupun yg bs mencegah dan menolaknya. Kematian itu datang begitu saja tanpa diundang. Merenggut setiap nafas kehidupan yang ada, menghentikan setiap detak jantung dan aliran darah.

Jujur ternyata gw takut bwt menghadapi kematian. Padahal sebagai manusia, kt harus siap menghadapi kematian kapan saja. Krn kt gak akan pernah tau kapan dy datang. Bs detik ini, bs satu jam lagi, bsk, lusa, 10 tahun lagi, 20, 30, ... kapanpun.

Akhir2 ini gw terlalu menikmati hidup gw, sampai2 gw merasa gak pengen bs mati. Masi pengen melakukan begitu banyak hal, impian2 dan meraih kesempatan2 dalam hidup.. Gw merasa "hidup" gw yg sesungguhnya justru baru dimulai..

Entah knapa gw nulis blog kyk gini. Maap yah. Pikiran gw lg kacau memang. Mgkn masi shock krn nyaris celaka minggu lalu.. Jadi kalut gini d.. Anggep aja gw lagi mengigau. Sekedar mencurahkan pemikiran bodoh.

Tapi dari sini gw blajar utk melihat, bahwa ternyata kehidupan adalah anugerah terindah. Setiap helaan nafas yg masi bs kt hirup tiap saat adalah karunia. Setiap detak jantung yg kt rasakan adalah berkat. Kt hrs belajar menghargainya.

Bbrp hari ini gw lg sakit,, gak parah memang, tapi cukup sedikit mengganggu aktivitas gw..
Tapi entah sejak kapan gw pny keberanian utk bersyukur atas sakit gw,, krn dengan merasakan sakit, itu artinya gw masi hidup. Masi menjalani kehidupan di dunia ini. Kalo suatu saat gw udah gak merasakan sakit apa2 lagi, itu namanya gw udah mati.

Jadi skarang gw bs menjalani hari2 gw dengan penuh rasa syukur. Belajar utk menikmati segala keadaan. Sambil berusaha melakukan yg terbaik dalam setiap detik kehidupan gw.. Supaya kalo suatu saat gw harus menghadapi yg namanya kematian, gw gak perlu merasa takut atau menyesal. Karena gw telah memberikan segala yg terbaik dalam hidup gw =)

Life is really a great GIFT. Appreciate it before you lose it.

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

- "nicknames.." -

Ergh.. I think I've got too many nicknames!! Look at this list:

1. Astrid,, my real name.
2. Trid,, to make it short.
3. Strid,, pronounced just like the word "street" wkakaka =P
4. Ucrit,, my high school classmates called me so.
5. Kucrit,, they modified my name stupidly! ergh.
6. Unyil,, OMG.
7. Cil,, from the word "kecil".
8. De',, some seniors call me this.
9. Bu,, erghhhhhh. Am I "ibu2"??!
10. Chibi or just Chib to make it short,, Japanese word means "small".
11. Acit or Cit for common,, my friends at the univ are too lazy to pronounce "trid". Oh my goodness..
12. Bonsai,, hate this one!!!
13. Dul,, erghhh.. Sounds that I'm so dull wkwk..
14. Nek,, my God!! How come they call me like this??! Does my face look like a grandma?! ugh.
15. Piglet,, I'm NOT a piggy!! bwekkk =P
16. Sucang,, the short name of "susu kacang", bcos I'm a sucang-holic.
17. Cabe bogel,, the latest nickname for me, given from the sayur-mayur family..
18. ...*

* For number 18, you may add some nicknames for me that I might be forgotten to write hahaha..

So.. Don't you think that I've got too many nicknames in my life???!!
In fact,, people RARELY call me with my real name (Astrid). Huaaaaaaaaa...
If I let this happen continuously,, maybe someday people will forget my real name!! OMG.
Hiksssss T.T

Monday, December 1, 2008

- welcome DECEMBER...!" -

yuHuuu.. December is coming! ^^
The most adorable and cherish month of the year for me..
It's nice to see the malls with a Christmas decoration, with the Christmas songs everywhere,, Santa Claus,, Christmas trees,, Christmas deer,, Christmas parades and so on..
With the RED and GREEN color everywhere.. December always raises my mood up. Even on this December I've to do my final exam at the univ, but it still seems so fun.

I love the Christmas mass,, and this year I'm the committee of the Christmas mass in my campus. Hmph. Can't wait for that day =)
It must be so fun. I'm also waiting for the Christmas holiday!! This one is which I love the most =D

It's the month of the born of my Lord, Jesus Christ.

The born of my Saviour,, my Sheperd,, my Guide.
What kinda present could I give to Him??
I have nothing, except my HEART.
So I would give my heart to Him as my Christmas present ^^

Hope that this year's Christmas would be better than last year,, since last year was the worst Christmas ever in my life.


At last...

WELCOME DECEMBERRRRRR...!!