- " F R I E N D S" -

Friends care
Friends share
We need friends
Everywhere
Friends are kind
Friends are in mind
We need friends
All the time

dedicated to my bestiest, Ria Wulandari (",)

Reconciliation is one of the best gifts in a relationship (",)

There's just one thing I want you to know:
"I'll be fine without you.."

- "How can I NOT love you?" -

Cannot touch
Cannot hold
Cannot be together

Cannot love
Cannot kiss
Cannot have each other

Must be strong and we must let go
Cannot say what our hearts must know
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms

How does one waltz away from all the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone

Cannot dream
Cannot share
Sweet and tender moments

Cannot feel
How we feel
Must pretend it's over

Must be brave and we must go on
Must not say what we've known all along

How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms

How does one waltz away from all the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone
How can I not love you..

Must be brave and we must be strong
Cannot say what we've known all along

How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms

How does one waltz away from all the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone

How can I not love you
When you are you gone.....

- "praise You ALL THE TIME." -

Hari minggu yg lalu gw ikut pelatihan WL pertemuan ketiga di shekinah.. Jujur saat datang kesana perasaan gw lg biasa-biasa aja,, gak terlalu antusias juga krn ada beberapa hal yang mengganjal di pikiran gw, termasuk salah satunya adalah ujian tengah semester yang sedang gw hadapi..

Jam 10 lewat pelatihan dimulai dengan pujian penyembahan pembuka. Perasaan gw? Masih biasa aja, nothing special. Lalu masuk ke firman yang dibawakan oleh Kak Elvi.. Awalnya juga gw masih gak merasakan apa-apa,, sampai kak elvi membahas tentang kapan kita harus memuji dan menyembah Tuhan. Lalu kita buka alkitab dan baca Mazmur 34:2 bersama-sama..
Ini bunyinya:

"Aku hendak memuji Tuhan pada segala waktu; puji-pujian kepadaNya tetap di dalam mulutku."

Kak elvi menjelaskan bahwa ini adalah ayat wajib bagi semua pelayan-pelayan pujian Tuhan. Terkadang kita sebagai manusia merasa sangat sulit untuk memuji Tuhan disaat kita sedang sedih, kecewa atau mungkin saat kita marah.. Sulit rasanya untuk bersyukur disaat kita down. Bagaimana mungkin kita diputusin pacar berkali-kali, atau dikecewakan orang berkali-kali, lalu kita berkata "Tuhan Engkau baik"?
Atau jika kita mendapat masalah bertubi-tubi lalu kita berkata "Tuhan Engkau luar biasa indah"?
Tapi di ayat Mazmur itu ditulis bahwa kita harus memuji Tuhan PADA SEGALA WAKTU, yang berarti di dalam segala keadaan, baik senang maupun sedih. Tetap memuji Dia bahkan disaat hati dan perasaan ini seakan-akan menolak.

Hoaahh. Firman ini sungguh sangat menampar gw. Mengingatkan dengan jelas betapa seringnya mulut dan hati ini mengeluh ketika gw mendapatkan masalah, ketika gw kecewa, ketika gw sedih, atau ketika gw sedang merasa lelah dengan semuanya.. Betapa berat dan sulit rasanya untuk tetap memuji Dia dalam kondisi seperti itu.
Bukan pujian yang keluar, tetapi cercaan.
Bukan kata-kata berkat yang keluar, tetapi kata-kata kutuk.
Bukan penyembahan yang keluar, tetapi amarah atas kekecewaan.
Tapi puji Tuhan satu ayat itu cukup membuat gw tersadar atas kesalahan gw selama ini.. Gw memperkatakan ayat itu dengan sungguh-sungguh di dalam hati gw, dan mulai selalu berusaha untuk mengingatnya lagi saat gw kembali mulai ingin mengeluh.

Malam itu gw berdoa pada Dia supaya Dia tetap menjaga hati gw, untuk boleh selalu tetap memuji dan menyembah Dia di setiap waktu, di setiap keadaan, sesulit apapun itu.. Gw minta Dia mengingatkan gw kembali setiap kali gw lupa untuk bersyukur.
Gw tau hal ini bukanlah hal yang mudah. Sebagai manusia, pasti sangat sulit rasanya.. Tetapi gw gak mau menyerah sebelum mencobanya. Dan gw percaya ketika gw mau, maka Dia sendiri yang akan memampukan gw :)

Semoga gw gak cuma memuji dan menyembah Dia saat gw bernyanyi melayani Dia sebagai tim pujian aja, tetapi terlebih lagi gw memuji dan menyembah Dia di dalam setiap langkah kehidupan gw. Setiap saat. Setiap waktu. Dan biar hidup gw boleh menyenangkan dan membawa kemuliaan buat Dia ^^
Amiiiiinnn :)

My lips shall praise You all the time and I will lift up my heart to worship You forever more (",)

- "Aku Tak Bisa" -

Aku tak bisa lepaskanmu dari mataku
Aku tak bisa membunuhmu
Dan aku tak bisa bohongi diriku butuh kamu
Aku tak bisa melupakanmu

Mencoba lupakan semua yang terjadi
Namun ku semakin tersiksa sendiri
Mencoba akhiri perasaan yang ada
Namun dirimu semakin mendekatiku

T'lah kucoba melupakan dirimu
Namun hanya kau yang s'lalu ada di hatiku..

I don't hate you for not loving me anymore,
I hate myself for still loving you..

- "dear BOYS." -

Boys,
is it a pride for you to hurt the girls?

Boys,
what comes to your mind when you steal the girls' hearts but than suddenly you leave them?

Boys,
is it something acceptable for you to make the girls believe that you are falling in love with them when actually you are NOT?

Boys,
don't you have any feelings of guilt?

Boys,
have you ever felt the same way of being hurt by someone you love?

Boys,
do you understand what love really means?

Boys,
how does it feel when you give false hopes to the girls and find them hurt by you at the end?

Boys,
have you ever thought about how long does it take for the girls just to get you out of their minds?

Boys,
do you realize that when you break their hearts, you also break their lives?

Boys,
do you know how hard for the girls to trust another boys once you break their hearts?

Boys,
can't you see how hard they try not to blame their selves when they realize that they have fallen in love with the wrong ones?

Boys,
would you please STOP playing with the girls' hearts since they are so fragile?

Boys,
once you break their hearts, you break their hopes and trust,
and you ruin their lives..

Don't you realize it?

- "When Things Aren’t Going Your Way" -

When things aren’t going your way,
you might feel that it’s the end of the world.

When things aren’t going your way,
you might feel that you’re neglected or being left alone.

When things aren’t going your way,
you might feel stressed out, depressed, frustrated
and disappointed.

When things aren’t going your way,
you might blame the whole world, your family,
your friends, you yourself, and finally: God.

When things aren’t going your way,
you might feel like you want to give up.

But actually…

When things aren’t going your way,
It’s actually a new opportunity to learn a new experience in life.

When things aren’t going your way,
It’s good that you’re able to reflect and introspect.

When things aren’t going your way,
It’s good to know that your way isn’t the only way to fulfill your wish.

When things aren’t going your way,
It’s time to surrender and trust The Almighty.

When things aren’t going your way,
It’s time to pray more, trust Him more…

Because He knows better ways than your ways.
Because He knows better plans than your plans.
Because He knows the best for you.

When things aren’t going your way,
It’s a new beginning to another solution in your life.

As long as you believe…
He will make a way for you.
Exceedingly, abundantly far above that you could ask or think.

When things aren’t going your way,
Stay grateful, be thankful,
and you’ll see His marvelous ways in your life.

All you need is just the willingness to change and accept different ways:
His wonderful plans for you.

source: http://fjodikin. blogspot. com/2010/ 04/when-things- arent-going- your-way. html