Tomorrow is gonna be my only-brother's marriage day..
It's all been prepared since last year when he proposed his girl who's now going to be my sister in law soon :)
What do I feel?
I thought that I'd feel nothing about his leaving and everything would be just the same as usual..
But I know that I'm totally wrong since now I suddenly decide to write this blog just to share all about my random emotions that come across my mind and heart, realizing that within less than 24 hours my bro will leave this house and my family to start his new life with his new family :')
It's been months since the last time I wrote my latest blog but tonight I have no other better way to say everything to my beloved bro (you know, I would definitely cry before I say A WORD to him, so maybe it's just better to write everything here just to let him know what I feel now..)
Dear my beloved-only-brother, Daniel V.W.,
Life's not always easy for us..
When we're just a little brother and sister, we quarreled a lot..
You always made me feel annoyed and made me cried each day,
Then I always came to mom or dad to tell them everything and then they got mad to you :P
When you were in Junior High School and I was in Primary School..
You always made me waiting for you playing football at school for hours in exhaust!
Never gonna forget the way we treated our driver at that time *sensor* hahaha :P
When you were in Senior High School and I was in Junior High School..
We became more mature and got closer to each other
We told stories and jokes.. We laughed in my room from night till dawn..
We talked about everything: families, friends, special friends, dreams, culinary, religions, simply EVERYTHING!
We made many crazy recordings (which I still keep until now)
We didn't even sleep those nights coz we never ran out of topics while being together
We were really close even 'till I was at University..
Even some of my friends were envious coz they were not close to their brother/sister like us!
Sometimes we got angry and didn't talk to each other when we both were not in the mood
But as soon as we've got better, we always laughed together again ^^
Within 22 years of my life and 26 years of yours in our family, we've been through a lot of things together..
Not only good times, but there were also many hard times in our family..
Yes, a very hard one, but we managed to survive together and strengthened each other!
When our parents quarreled, it was only you whom I could talk to :')
I always shared everything to you and so you did to me..
Time goes by so fast..
Tomorrow is gonna be your wedding day!
I never thought that you'll be married on 26 years old, never thought that I would lose a brother that fast :')
Dear brother,
I've always been wishing the best for you and for the rest of your life! :)
I do feel sad when I realize that we've got even farther day by day since last year :')
We rarely told stories and spend times together now because of so many things happened unpredictably..
And we're definitely not as close as before :')
But that's alright coz now I can see that you've really found your happiness and I'm happy for you, really! ^^
I'm gonna miss you in this house
Gonna miss the way we chatted late at night in my room
Gonna miss the way you woke up at noon
Gonna miss the way we told stupid jokes just like stupid 10 years old children
Gonna miss everything about you here, bro! :')
I'm sorry for everything about me that annoys you through these whole years,
you know I never really mean it..
I'm sorry for often misunderstand you and get mad to you unreasonably..
I'm sorry if I've ever been wrong in judging you..
Thanks for taking care of me these years,
and for driving me to campus or my workplace..
Thanks for all the advice and suggestions,
for the strengths and cheers when I get down..
I've learned so many things that I will never forget from you..
I just want you to know that I've always been loving you as my only brother, and I've always been thankful for having a bro like you, with all your strengths and weaknesses in my eyes :')
I really wish that we would still have a good and close relationship even after you get married tomorrow :)
Really wish nothing would change between us as brother and sister forever :)
I love you, bro!
Have I ever told you about that? :)
If I haven't, now at least you know it.. :')
Take a good care always bro! :)
Nobody could ever replace your place in my heart.
Never forget our parents and me, ok ;)
Feel free to share everything with me if you need.. Coz I'll forever be your little sister ^^
It's a fact that would never change :)
P.S: I wish I could hug you on your wedding day without getting tears rolled down in my eyes!
With a hugeeee hugss n love,,
Your forever sist, Astrid :)
