- "2014, a year of BLESSINGS." -

I believe that this 2014 is a year full of blessings for me and my family..

Thank You for all Your blessings that we've received so far, Jesus!

I know You've not done yet,

this must be just the beginning 

of more overflowing blessings to come..

We wanna say thank You with all of our hearts

and we can't wait to receive the next, the next,

and the next ones from You!

Still strongly believing that Your time is PERFECT!

I love You, Jesus! :)

- "Thank you, 2013." -

This year I loved.

This year I've lost.

This year I've changed.

This year was hard.

Hard, but I learned a lot.

I've learned that people can be fake.

I've learned that people can hurt you a lot,
without giving a shit about it.

I've learned that good people can change in a minute
when their hearts get broken.

I've met great people, but mean people as well. 

But the most important thing I've learned

is that every person in this world is strong enough to let go.

To let go of that painful past of yours

that broke your heart into million pieces.

People come and go, that's life.

The most important thing is
to stand up and realize

that you deserve something better than a person that gives up on you.

2013, thank you for all the lessons :')

2014, I'm ready.

- "Thank you" -

Someday,

we'll forget the hurt, 

the reason we cried,

and who caused us pain.

We will finally realize 

that the secret of being free

is not revenge,

but letting things unfold

in their own way and own time.

After all,

what matters is not the first,

but the last chapter of our life

which shows how well we ran the race.

So smile,

laugh,

forgive,

and

love all over again.

Sorry and thanks for everything, dear..

Thanks for ever being one of the best parts in my life.

Thanks for ever loving me.

Thanks for ever caring for me.

Thanks for ever brightening my days and enlighten my nights.

Thanks for ever bringing out the best in me.

You'll be forever remain in my heart :)

* 26.01.2011 - 10.07.2013 * 

- "Goodbye, beloved GRANDPA.." -

I'm proud to ever had a grandpa like you.. You'll forever remain in my heart, for sure.. Thanks for everything, grandpa Harjono Bunadi.. Goodbye, we'll meet again someday when it's time.. Gonna miss you sooo muchhh.. I LOVE YOU! :')

I love you.. I really do! :')

We'll never forget you, forever :)

Dear my beloved brother..

Tomorrow is gonna be my only-brother's marriage day..
It's all been prepared since last year when he proposed his girl who's now going to be my sister in law soon :)

What do I feel?
I thought that I'd feel nothing about his leaving and everything would be just the same as usual..
But I know that I'm totally wrong since now I suddenly decide to write this blog just to share all about my random emotions that come across my mind and heart, realizing that within less than 24 hours my bro will leave this house and my family to start his new life with his new family :')
It's been months since the last time I wrote my latest blog but tonight I have no other better way to say everything to my beloved bro (you know, I would definitely cry before I say A WORD to him, so maybe it's just better to write everything here just to let him know what I feel now..)

Dear my beloved-only-brother, Daniel V.W.,
Life's not always easy for us..
When we're just a little brother and sister, we quarreled a lot..
You always made me feel annoyed and made me cried each day,
Then I always came to mom or dad to tell them everything and then they got mad to you :P

When you were in Junior High School and I was in Primary School..
You always made me waiting for you playing football at school for hours in exhaust!
Never gonna forget the way we treated our driver at that time *sensor* hahaha :P

When you were in Senior High School and I was in Junior High School..
We became more mature and got closer to each other
We told stories and jokes.. We laughed in my room from night till dawn..
We talked about everything: families, friends, special friends, dreams, culinary, religions, simply EVERYTHING!
We made many crazy recordings (which I still keep until now)
We didn't even sleep those nights coz we never ran out of topics while being together
We were really close even 'till I was at University..
Even some of my friends were envious coz they were not close to their brother/sister like us!

Sometimes we got angry and didn't talk to each other when we both were not in the mood
But as soon as we've got better, we always laughed together again ^^
Within 22 years of my life and 26 years of yours in our family, we've been through a lot of things together..
Not only good times, but there were also many hard times in our family..
Yes, a very hard one, but we managed to survive together and strengthened each other!
When our parents quarreled, it was only you whom I could talk to :')
I always shared everything to you and so you did to me..

Time goes by so fast..
Tomorrow is gonna be your wedding day!
I never thought that you'll be married on 26 years old, never thought that I would lose a brother that fast :')

Dear brother,
I've always been wishing the best for you and for the rest of your life! :)
I do feel sad when I realize that we've got even farther day by day since last year :')
We rarely told stories and spend times together now because of so many things happened unpredictably..
And we're definitely not as close as before :')
But that's alright coz now I can see that you've really found your happiness and I'm happy for you, really! ^^

I'm gonna miss you in this house
Gonna miss the way we chatted late at night in my room
Gonna miss the way you woke up at noon
Gonna miss the way we told stupid jokes just like stupid 10 years old children
Gonna miss everything about you here, bro! :')

I'm sorry for everything about me that annoys you through these whole years,
you know I never really mean it..
I'm sorry for often misunderstand you and get mad to you unreasonably..
I'm sorry if I've ever been wrong in judging you..

Thanks for taking care of me these years,
and for driving me to campus or my workplace..
Thanks for all the advice and suggestions,
for the strengths and cheers when I get down..
I've learned so many things that I will never forget from you..

I just want you to know that I've always been loving you as my only brother, and I've always been thankful for having a bro like you, with all your strengths and weaknesses in my eyes :')
I really wish that we would still have a good and close relationship even after you get married tomorrow :)
Really wish nothing would change between us as brother and sister forever :)

I love you, bro!
Have I ever told you about that? :)
If I haven't, now at least you know it.. :')

Take a good care always bro! :)
Nobody could ever replace your place in my heart.
Never forget our parents and me, ok ;)
Feel free to share everything with me if you need.. Coz I'll forever be your little sister ^^
It's a fact that would never change :)

P.S: I wish I could hug you on your wedding day without getting tears rolled down in my eyes!

With a hugeeee hugss n love,,

Your forever sist, Astrid :)

- "Goodbye dearest UNCLE.." -

2012.. Since the very beginning of this year I've realized that 2012 will be an unforgettable year for me. Many important things that influence my life a lot, I guess, will happen throughout this year.. These are some big events that I've predicted before:
1. I will finish my Scientific Writing and graduate
2. Kevin will also finish his thesis and graduate together with me
3. Kevin will continue his study to USA at least for 2 years :')
4. I will start working full time in a new place and quit from my 1st job
5. My bro will get married at the end of this year and I'll be a single child in my house soon

The 1st and 2nd prediction have actually happened. I just have to wait for my "real" graduation on 21st april, and Kevin's on 26th May :)

But one thing I've never predicted before has just happened in my recent days. Never at once I thought that I would lost one of my best uncles forever this year :")
He passed away a few days ago, leaving so many memories in our hearts..
Leaving a charisma that would never be able to be replaced by anybody else..
Leaving tears in our eyes, hardly letting him go and fly away..

It has just been a few days since his leaving, but gosh I can't describe how I've missed him already :")
And how sad it is to realize that he's not around us anymore..

It killed our hearts to see him struggling hard with his sickness for the past 3 years
To see him dying in a few days before his death
To see his stiff body lied down inside a coffin and finally cremated
Yes, it did really killed our hearts to let his ash sank down the sea

Sometimes I wonder.. Why should there always be a "goodbye"?

Goodbye my dearest Uncle, you'll forever be loved and remained in our hearts :')

Happy Birthday, dear!! :D

Welcome to the legal age..

Welcome to a maturity ^^

Be a better person

and

always keep being MY BEST!! (",)

Love you so muchhh dearr :)

- "the SPECIAL X'mas cards =) " -

I've been receiving the special Christmas cards from my very special best friend, Ria Wulandari, since the 1st year of Christmas that we spent together in 2008 :)
Every year, she never forgets to make one special Christmas card for me and I always wait for it hihi :D
These are the cards specially made by her for me ^^

- 2008 -

*her first own-made X'mas card for me*

- 2009 -

*last's year lovely X'mas card :)*

- 2010 -

.The first part.

*this year's SUPER DUPER CUTE X'mas card! :D*


. the second part.

*full of our memories from the beginning till now on :)*

This is where I put them.. On the best part of my room where I can see clearly it from every other part of my room =)

*three special X'MAS CARDS, a BDAY CARD, a lovely BDAY FRAME, a cute BDAY CARICATURE all made by her (",)*

Thanks for all the special gifts for me, dear..
Love them so muchhhh :)
Love you too my bestiest ever :*
Keep our special bond of friendship tight till the end ;)
*huggsssss hugggssssss!*

Anyway, I'm waiting for the next Christmas cards and birthday presents hahaha :P :D

- "thanks God I have you all.." -

Bulan Desember tahun 2010 ini kembali menjadi sebuah bulan yang "tough" bagi hidupku..
Kembali lagi aku harus melepaskan dan kehilangan seseorang yang kusayang, karena keadaan memisahkan kami..
Kembali lagi aku harus meneteskan air mata..
Kembali lagi aku harus merasakan sakit hati yang membuatku melewati hari-hari dengan tidak mudah..

Satu bulan.
Ya, satu bulan yang manis dan penuh kenangan bersamanya..
Waktu yang diberikan Tuhan bagiku untuk merasakan kebahagiaan itu sangatlah singkat..
Begitu banyak hal yang belum sempat kami lalui bersama..
Begitu banyak mimpi dan harapan yang belum terwujud bersamanya..
Hanya satu bulan.
November, the sweetest month in the year.

Kini aku dan dia sudah tak lagi bersama.
Keadaan memisahkan kami begitu saja..
Siapa yang harus disalahkan?
Tidak ada.
Aku dan dia hanyalah korban dari keadaan yang tak bisa diubah.
Keadaan yang memupuskan segala mimpi dan harapan kami..
Keadaan yang mengubah kehidupan kami.

Tetapi aku tak pernah menyesali segala yang telah terjadi dan kami lalui bersama..
Karena aku tau ada banyak sekali pelajaran yang dapat kupetik dari kejadian ini..
Ada banyak hal yang membuka mataku, dan selangkah lagi membuat aku menjadi seorang wanita yang lebih kuat dan dewasa..

Mungkin banyak orang di luar sana yang tidak tau apa permasalahannya,
dan masing-masing dari mereka membuat asumsi dan penghakiman tersendiri terhadap diriku..
Mungkin mereka terkejut karena "track record" berpacaranku hanya satu bulan..
Entah apa yang akan mereka pikirkan dan katakan tentang aku..
Tetapi aku tidak peduli.
Terserah bagaimana penilaian mereka terhadapku..
Toh mereka tidak tau apa yang sesungguhnya terjadi.
Aku lelah menjelaskannya pada orang-orang..
Karena setiap kali menjelaskannya, aku akan kembali mengingat dirinya dan hatiku kembali terluka..
Biarlah hanya orang-orang terdekatku saja yang memahami apa yang sebenarnya terjadi..

Dan biarlah kini aku kembali sendiri..
Menjalani hari-hariku tanpa dia.
Tapi aku akan tetap kuat.
Karena aku tau aku tak pernah sendiri..
Aku punya Dia dan orang-orang yang kukasihi di sekelilingku yang akan selalu ada untukku dan menopangku :)
Entah berapa banyak ucapan syukur yang harus aku ucapkan atas kehadiran mereka di dalam hidupku..
Mereka adalah malaikat-malaikat yang dikirimkan oleh Dia untuk mewarnai hari-hariku..
I love them, really love them :)

Special LOVE and THANKS for:

Ria Wulandari
Sulistia Wijaya
Shinta Lee
Daniel V.W
Selva Lianawati
Alvin Munaf
Brothers and sisters in PDKK St. Hieronimus

for praying, cheering me up, supporting, being beside me, and loving me always :)
I love you, guys.. And I never stop thanking God for having you all in my life..
May God bless you abundantly and return everything that you've given to me..
*hugggssss*

- "Should I leave?" -

Dear my BiG,,

I thought that we're going to serve Him forever together
I thought that the spirit will always exist between us
I thought that our love and desire will never be expired
I thought that we're going to be a solid family forever
I thought that we will raise up and be much better than before
I thought that BiG will be BiGger and even be the BiGgest from time to time

But unfortunately,
I think I was wrong
I think it is quite impossibly happen
I think I should not put too much hope and expectations anymore

I've been waiting for so long to see us raise up
I've been praying too much
I've been so patient and keep all my sadness deep inside my heart

I really miss the way we used to be
the way we prayed together
the way we served Him
the way we worshiped
the way we played music
the way we danced
the way we gathered as a community
the way we spent laughter and tears
the way we organized retreats and events
the way we hung out to Puri mall after PD 'till late at night
the way we played monopoly while laughing out loud
the way we shared our problems and strengthened each other
the way we gave supports
the way we went to Dufan and Bandung

Don't you miss it too, guys? :'(

I was so proud of us that time..
I shared everything to my brothers and sisters at Hiero about us,
I wanted them to grow just like how we were..
But now.. I have almost nothing to share with them except my sadness of our condition.
I have nothing to be proud of.

I'm not even needed here.
I haven't been contributing a lot.
You all will keep going well without my presence,
so why should I stay?

All my close brothers and sisters have gone..
None of them stays beside me.
None of them really cares.
See.. I always feel lonely whenever I go there..
Feels like I just get there purely to serve Him,
and not to gather with my brothers and sisters..
I've lost you all.
Feels like you're not my second home anymore..
And I really miss you :'(

What hurts me the most is that I know that I can't do anything for us except keep praying and praying and praying..

If I may ask You one question, Lord..
Should I leave or should I stay? :'(

If You wanted me to leave, why didn't You take my heart away from BiG?
Why should I still love them?
Why should I care?

But if You wanted me to stay, please tell me what should I do..
Coz I can't overcome my sorrow for seeing this condition anymore, Lord..
You know I really love them T.T

Happy birthday, my dearest MOM!! :D

Wishing you:

* Luck
* Happiness
* Blessing
* Love
* Patient
* Laughter
* Wisdom
* Wealth
* Health
* Success
* Smiles
* Grace
* Joy
* Faithfulness

wishing you... EVERYTHING the BEST for you :) :)

I love you, Mom!!
You're gonna be my BEST, as always.. ^^
*muaccchhhh*

- " F R I E N D S" -

Friends care
Friends share
We need friends
Everywhere
Friends are kind
Friends are in mind
We need friends
All the time

dedicated to my bestiest, Ria Wulandari (",)

- "dear my very BEST FRIEND." -

Thanks for sharing the joy n smiles with me
Thanks for listening to my troubles n my sadness
Thanks for cheering me up n even crying for me
Thanks for showing me what friendship really means
Thanks you so much, RIA WULANDARI...

So glad n thankful to have you in my life, sist..
Best friend n sister forever! (",)
Jesus n I love you..

- "if I could TURN BACK the time.." -

I really miss the time we used to be
I miss the time we gathered
I miss the time we shared
I miss the time we laughed
I miss the time we told stories
I miss the time we served together
I miss the time we attended meetings
I miss the time we hung out and had fun
I miss the time we prayed
I miss the time we worshiped
I miss the time we hugged
I miss the time we supported each other

I wish I could turn back the time
and spend more time with you..
I wish everything had never changed
I wish the business, time and distance couldn't separate us
I wish everything seemed just like how we used to be

I miss those times,, really.
I miss the atmosphere of our togetherness
I miss the unity of our heart and the spirit of our soul
I miss you you you and you..
I miss you all.

Please, come back to my life :'(

To: all of my lovely brothers and sisters @ BiG

*missing you guys*

- "Hipie Bidieeee!!" -

Today is my mom's birthday!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MOM ^^

Can't give you anything but a simple prayer that comes out from the deepest of my heart :)
Have a blessed and happy life always..

Luph u so,,

XOXO
Ur lovely daughter.

- "Thanks :)" -

Dua hari yang lalu, gw bener2 lagi merasa exhausted banget atas semua tugas2, kepanitiaan, pelayanan, kuliah, dsb2 dalam hidup gw..
Dan waktu itu gw sangat merindukan yang namanya "refreshing".
I need time for my own, I thought.
I need time to refresh my mind..

Dan kemariiiiiin,, permintaan gw terjawab sudah.
Selesai pembekalan panitia MIA, gw diajak anak2 hiero ke EX..
Awalnya gw pikir bakalan biasa2 aja,, paling cm makan n jalan2 kayak biasa..
Tapiiiii,, ternyata kemarin itu bener2 extraordinary!! Hahahaha..
Sepanjang jalan kita ketawa ketiwi terus,, bercanda2,, makan sambil ketawa2 sampe sakit perut..
Masing2 dari kita bener2 tertawa lepas dan seakan2 sukacita itu gak ada habis2nya..
Sampai malam pun, biarpun perut udah keram karena ketawa2 terus, tapi tetep ajah kita ga bisa berenti ketawa2 hahaha :P

Pokoknya kemarin bener2 penuh dengan sukacita..
Gw bener2 bersyukur banget krn Tuhan mengirimkan kalian semua untuk membuat gw tertawa lagi disaat gw sedang jenuuuuh banget sama hidup gw..
Bersyukur banget atas setiap pribadi kalian yang boleh gw kenal dan ada dalam hidup gw.
Bersyukur banget krn lewat kalian gw boleh melupakan masalah2 gw sejenak.
Dan bersyukur banget krn sukacita surga boleh turun atas kita semua :D

Gw gak akan melupakan hari kemarin.
Jarang2 gw pergi sama temen2 bisa sampe penuh sukacita gt hehehe..
Smoga di lain waktu ini bisa terulang lagi ^^
Smoga sukacita ini gak akan pernah berakhir mengisi hidup kita :)

To:
ci ricca, ci dian, rano, levina, rizki, ci amel...
Thanks for yesterday..
Thanks for the laughter we've shared..

and,,
Thanks for making my days great :)

God Bless Us.

- "dedicated to Ci Sanni.." -

Gw masih ga percaya bhw ci Sanni udah gak ada..
Sosok seorang perempuan dewasa yg begitu murah senyum..
Seseorang yg seringkali tersenyum lebar dan berkata "baiklaahh.."
Seseorang yg selalu bersikap bijaksana..
Seseorang yg penuh dengan nasihat dan kata2 bijak..
Tempat yg nyaman utk berbagi dan bercerita..
Seorang lulusan kedokteran yg sangat cerdas..

Kenapa Tuhan memanggil dia secepat ini?!
Dia masih terlalu muda utk pergi selama2nya, Tuhan..
Masih ada begituuu banyak hal yg seharusnya dapat dia rasakan dan lewati..
Masih ada mama dan adiknya yg harus dia jaga..
Kenapa?!
Kenapa semuanya begitu tiba2?!

Minggu lalu dia masih begitu baik2 saja..
Kami masih makan bersama di bedeng..
Dia masih menyediakan telinganya utk mendengar cerita dan keluhan2 kami..
Dia masih menyediakan waktunya utk menasehati kami dengan bijak..
Dia masih tertawa bersama kami..
Dia masih ikut persekutuan doa bersama kami..

Tapi hari ini..
Tiba2 dia pergi begitu aja..
Dia pergi dan gak akan pernah kembali..
Gak akan ada lagi senyumannya yang lebar..
Gak akan lagi kata2 "baikklaah.." keluar dari mulutnya..
Gak akan lagi kulihat anggukannya yang khas..

Untuk ci Sanni,,
terimakasih utk semua hal yg udah cc kasih pada kami..
Mungkin kami baru mengenal cc dalam 3-4 bulan terakhir..
Tapi kenangan yg udah cc kasih,, gak akan kami lupakan selamanya..
Mungkin Tuhan Yesus terlalu sayang pada cc,, sampai2 Dia menginginkan cc ada disampingNya, utk menemani Dia..
Apapun alasan Tuhan memanggil cc secepat ini,, aku yakin itu pasti yg terbaik dan terindah..
Semoga cc tenang disampingNya..
Selamat jalan, ci Sanni..
Namamu akan tetap melekat di hati kami..

I wanna sing you a song, ci..
Ini lagu "Tuhan Pasti Sanggup" yang cc suka :)
Dengerin aku nyanyi yaa ^^

Kuatkanlah hatimu
lewati setiap persoalan
Tuhan Yesus s'lalu menopangmu
jangan berhenti harap padaNya

Tuhan pasti sanggup
Tangannya takkan terlambat tuk mengangkatmu
Tuhan masih sanggup
Percayalah Dia tak tinggalkanmu
Percayalah Dia kan mengangkatmu ^^

We love you.

Best prayer,,
- PDKK St. Hieronimus -

- "Aku sayang kalian." -

Tadi siang tanpa sengaja gw menemukan map berisi file2 BIG di lemari gw.. Ada potongan2 kertas testimonial dari anggota2 BIG bwt gw,, ada struktur kepengurusan BIG,, ada job-desc utk setiap bidang,, ada kertas ujud2 doa bersama,, ada begituu banyak hal yg mengingatkan gw akan suasana komunitas BIG dulu,, saat awal pertama gw masuk ke dalam komunitas ini..

Saat membaca tulisan "tetua2 BIG" utk gw,, tiba2 gw kembali merasa rinduuu bgt sama mrk.. Gw kangennn skali pada anggota2 BIG dulu yg pernah membimbing gw sampai sejauh ini,, gw kangen akan perhatian2 mereka, gw kangen akan dukungan mereka, gw kangen akan pelukan2 yg seringkali mrk kasi bwt gw dulu.. Skarang keadaannya udah begitu berubah. Mrk gak lagi aktif di komunitas ini, gak lagi memiliki waktu utk mendengar cerita2 gw, bahkan utk menanyakan kabar pun sepertinya udah begitu sulit..

Perlahan tapi pasti mereka mulai menghilang. Mulai mengundurkan diri selangkah demi selangkah. Pekerjaan, masalah keluarga, sakit hati, kesibukan, perasaan gak nyaman dan sebagainya selalu menjadi alasan mengapa mereka mundur.
Dulu di Pendalaman Alkitab, tante Cun pernah bilang bhw BIG udah memasuki masa2 regenerasi, dmn setiap PD akan mengalami hal yg sama juga. Udah saatnya para tetua2 BIG mundur dan digantikan oleh pekerja2 baru. Well.. Jujur sampai saat ini gw masi membenci kenyataan ini.. Gw benci yg namanya 'pekerjaan' karena itu selalu mjd faktor utama mrk menghilang dari komunitas ini. Pekerjaan telah merebut mereka dari gw.. Pekerjaan telah mengubah komunitas ini.. Mengubah hati orang2 di dalamnya.
Mereka yg dulu begitu aktif, tiba2 mulai jarang terlihat. Dan gak ada yg bisa gw lakukan utk mencegahnya.

Dulu gw merasa BIG begitu hangat. Begitu byk orang yg saling memperhatikan di dalamnya. Begitu banyak orang yg rela saling berkorban demi kepentingan org lain. Begitu banyak orang yg berapi2 melayani Tuhan lewat 1 visi bersama. Dimana semua itu skarang? Dimana api kita yg dulu? Dimana kerinduan kt utk melayani Tuhan? Dimana perhatian kt utk teman2 sesama pelayanan? Kenapa smuanya harus berubah? Jujur gw masih blm bs menerima semua perubahan ini.. Gw udah mencoba, tetapi gw blm mampu.

Utk:
Sylvi, Richard, Albert, Yuli, Rosalyn, Ari, Novi, Tasya, Stanley, Fiona, Selena, Albertus Alvin, Diana, Felice, Sheila, Daniel, Frans..
Gw kangen saat dl kt begitu berapi2 dan bersatu hati. Gw kangen saat kt saling mendukung dan membangun satu sama lain. Gw kangen saat setiap minggu kt berkumpul utk komsel, PD, dan PA bersama.. Saling sharing dan menguatkan.. Saat2 kebersamaan kt dulu gak bs digantikan dgn apapun.. Ada sesuatu yg hilang dari BIG ketika kalian udah gak aktif di sini lagi.. Seandainya aja ada yg bs aku lakukan utk mengembalikan masa2 itu..
Aku sayang kalian T.T

as time goes by, they're LEAVING..

- "as time goes by, they're LEAVING.." -

Hummphh. Satu persatu temen2 gw brangkat ke luar negri buat lanjutin kuliah..
Setelah smua hal yang udah gw lewatin bareng2 sama mrk,, rasanya gak rela bgt bwt ngelepasin mrk pergi bgtu aja..
Seandainya aja mrk ga usah kuliah diluar,, seandainya aja kita masi bs sering ktmu,, seandainya aja kita masi bs pergi bareng,, seandainya aja kita masi bs lewatin hari2 bersama,, tertawa bersama,, menggila bersama,, mengautis bersama,, crita2 bersama,, bete2 bersama,, marah2 bersama.. Pfiuhh.

1st: ANGIE VALENTINE, 20 Juni, Amerika.
My god, kabar perginya dadakan banget. Bbrp hari sblm keberangkatan, gw baru tau kalo dy maw pergi.. Dan tragisnya, dy pergi 1 hari sblm pelantikan tim RG tempat dy melayani T.T
Dy bahkan gak sempet ikut acara wisuda skolah, pdhl dy dah ikut latian2nya sampe gladibersihnya.. Sedih abis. Gak tahan pas liat dy nangis waktu itu.. Biarpun gw gak gt deket ma dy, tp gw bener2 sedih pas dy pergi.. Mgkn krn gw dan dy sering ngobrol ttg RG dan BIG =)

2nd: ANDREAS BERNARD, 24 Juli, Malaysia.
Byk bgt temen2 yang ikut nganter dy ke airport.. Sayangnya mrk pada gak bawa mobil, jd gw ga bisa nebeng mrk buat ikut nganter hiks.. Padahal gw pengen bgt ktmu ndre trakir kali,, buat ngerjain dy soal fx haha.. (Pd blom tau ya kalo dy ngutang nyium kaki gw,, gara2 gak percaya pas gw blg ada fx dan prosotan 7 lante.. Gw mpe dibuli2 satu meja wkt ultah dy, krn ga da yang percaya ma gw.. trus pas hari minggu kmaren,, ndre n autis lain akhirnya sengaja nyari fx bwt ngebuktiin kl gw ga boong wkakakak.. Nah,, jd stlh mrk ngeliat fx dgn mata kpala ndiri, akhirnya si ndre ketakutan bwt ktmu gw,, takut gw buli2 balik huahuahuahua..) Dasar anak ituh =P

3rd: DENNISE TECHRISNA, 12 Agustus, Australia.
Duh dy perginya cepet bgt,, padahal gw pikir paling cepet akhir agustus.. Taunya.. Aaaarrrrrrrgggggghhhhhhhhh. Gw bakal keilangan temen senasib. Keilangan temen curhat. Keilangan temen sependeritaan. Keilangan temen chat. Keilangan temen blog. Keilangan temen jalan. HUH. dunia ini begitu kejam. lebih tepatnya,, denis begitu kejam hix T.T

4th: ANTHONY LIM, 21 Agustus, Amerika.
Si "tingky bedman trenggiling" ini temen brantem gw di msn, temen ngata2in dan temen berbosan2 ria hahah. Udah kenal mayan lama dr msn, tp blom perna ktmu ampe skrg.. Tiap kali maw pegi bareng susah bgt ma dy,, ada aja halangannya.. Kalo bukan gw nya yang ga bisa,, eh dy yang tiba2 ga bisa hahah >.<

5th: TIMOTHY, September, Swiss.
Wah.. Dy blg kalo dy dah di swiss, dy dah ga bs msn-an lg ma kita2 hiks T.T
it means, gw kehilangan satu lagi temen chat.. Padahal setiap kali gw ol, dy salah satu orang yang pasti nyapa gw. Blom pernah dy gak nyapa gw kayaknya. Jadi gw pasti ngerasa kehilangan jg hiks..

6th: CLARA OKTARINA, Oktober, Australia.
Dy itu temen SMP yang paling deket ma gw. Orgnya bener2 multi-talented. Gw pernah bingung, apa sih yang ga bs diperbuat ama dy? Gambar udah masternya, nyanyi bagus, drama nomer satu, ngarang jagonya, plajaran skola gak usah ditanya.. pokoknya almost perfect bgt!! Kalo dy ke ausie,, gw bakal lebih jarang lg ktmu ma dy drpd skarang.. Dan mungkin konteknya pun lebih jarang.. Sampe skarang gw masi nyimpen gambar2 dy di file gw, dan tulisan tgn dy di cat bio SMP gw masih gw simpen.. Don't wanna wipe away that memories =(

7th: AFRIZAL HARIMUKTI, Januari, Jerman.
"Koko" angkat gw.. Skaligus temen curhat, temen jalan, temen ktawa, temen nelpon, temen sms.. Org yang slalu berbaik hati mengantar jemput gw ke tempat prom, TA, eastern dll.. Org yang cekatan dan cukup dewasa. Humpphh. Smuanya bakal ilang stlh dy brangkat ke jerman.. Beruntung dy pergi masi stengah taun lagi,, jd kt2 masi punya waktu buat jalan ma dy.. Tp,, bgmn stlh 6 bulan lg?? ugh.


I really hate farewell. Ada satu perasaan aneh yang bener2 ga enak bgt rasanya setiap kali gw harus mengalami perpisahan dengan orang2 yang gw sayang. Dulu gw pernah ngalamin perpisahan yang bener2 parah,, sama temen yang udah gw anggep adik sendiri. Yang gw sayang setengah mati. Yang deketttt banget sama gw. Yang slalu minta nasehat dari gw. Yang sering nginep dan jalan bareng sama gw. Tiba2 scara dadakan bgt dy harus pindah ma keluarganya ke canada. Jujur gw gak siap wkt akhirnya dy pindah, dan sampe skarang udah hampir 4 taun dy gak pernah pulang lg ke indo. Sementara dsini gw masi seringkali inget dan kangen berat sama dy. Gosh!! Sepertinya gw agak trauma dengan hal itu.. Makanya sampe skarang gw bener2 takut dengan yang namanya perpisahan.

Tp.. Orang sering blg,, dimana ada pertemuan, disitu ada perpisahan. Gw sering mikir,, gmn caranya spy gw cm bs ketemu orang2, tp gw gak akan perna berpisah sama mrk? Sampe skrg gw gak perna dapet jawabannya..

Pada akhirnya,, as time goes by, they're leaving..
Take care then.
I'm gonna miss you all always T.T

farewell

- "FAREWELL" -

Temen2 recis, mungkin stlh tgl 21 Juni besok kita bakal jarang ato bahkan ga bakal ketemu lagi ampe bbrp taun ke depan.. Wisuda nanti mungkin bakal jadi pertemuan terakhir kita smua.. Kita uda lulus, bukan anak SMA lagi, bukan anak recis lagi,, mulai skarang kita adalah mahasiswa dan gelar kita berubah menjadi alumnus recis.. Kita harus menempuh jalan kita masing2.. Banyak hal yang mungkin jg akan ikut berubah dalam kehidupan kita setelah kelulusan kita ini. Sebagian dari kita mungkin ngelanjutin studi di luar negri ato di kluar kota, di tempat yang asing buat kita.. Ngikutin setiap mata kuliah yang mungkin blom perna kita dapet sebelumnya.. Beradaptasi dengan lingkungan dan pergaulan yang baru di univ dan fakultas yang berbeda2..
Tapi satu hal yang gw tau dengan pasti, persahabatan kita ga akan perna berubah.. Biarpun kita smua mencar2, tapi hati kita bakal tetep bersama.. Lo smua tetep sodara gw, lo smua tetep temen gw, lo smua tetep sahabat gw, lo smua tetep keluarga gw T.T

Dennise, thx uda jadi temen senasib gw, dah maw denger curhatan gw dan nemenin gw.. tengkyu jg buat tumpangan dirumah lo abis prom mpe jem 12 hehe..
Njie, makasi uda ngasi gw banyak nasehat dan ngebuka mata gw ttg si itu ahahaha.. Smua kata2 lo bener2 ngebantu gw..
Vina, kalo inget lo, gw jadi inget matematika molo haha.. wkt itu kita mpe blajar brg di ruma gw sehari sblom UAN yahhh.. Nyari rumus2 haram bersama2 hauhuahua.. Trus bis itu kita berdua kekenyangan makan soto mie, mpe nyaris ketiduran wkwk..
Elsa, Ms. Red hehe.. Pancious, starbucks, Sha!! Hoho.. Sering2 nemenin gw ke puri lagi yah =)
Lia, pemilik kaki terindah hoho.. Menyesal gw kaga berenang tiap ari kayak lo pas masi kecil, li hahaha.. Beli dimana kakinya??! Wkwk..
Patty, gw inget banget dulu kita sering ngomongin ttg Yesus pas klas 2.. Dan lo slalu ingetin gw spy gak stress dan blajar buat percaya sama Dia.. Thx a lot yaa.. U’re my sista in God ^^
Wendy, Ms. Mangdu wkwk.. Seneng bgt gw pas liat lo berdoa sblm makan hehe.. Ikuti jejak Joe yah wen hoho =)
Cynthia, teman “kecil”ku... kita ini kurcaci2 recis yakh haha.. Jgn terlalu minder dgn keadaan kita yang pendek, say.. Kecil bukan brati slalu buruk kan?! Hehe..
Mitha, cc 7 jam ku.. Pengen blajar bio bareng2 lagiiiiiii hehe..
Indri, ayo kita ke RG lagi!!! Ato skali2 ke BIG dong hehe.. Ajak jesen ^^ PD itu ternyata enak kan say?! Hoho..
Anita, si cecurut putih.. Gw bakal kangen ama jailnya elo nit.. Setaon sudah gw duduk disebelah lo dan dibuli2 tiap ari wkwk.. Ajari aku kimia lagi duonkkkkk ahahaha..
Tella, mata lobang kancing.. Maap yahhh sering gw ledek2in,, it means nothing koq.. Just kidding hoho..
Lavi, Ms. Jutek,, jgn galak2 lagi yaaa.. aku sempat takut padamu lhoo hahah.. Pas kelas 2 kita dah kayak kembar siam, kmana2 barengan hwhw.. Oiya,, ada gosip apah hari ini, vi?? Wkwkw..
Dessy, bebekk,, nardi dan pardi maw kita apainnn?? Ahahaha.. Gosong kita tiap ari nungguin jemputan di depan SD wkwk.. Gw kangen ma shock breakernya lo.. Peace ^^ huahauhua..
Maria, kangen bahasa Jawa mu yang medokkkk hehehe..
Azal, kecil2 toa! wkwk.. kangen suaramu yang menggelegar ituuu huhu..
Nata, Ms. Genius.. Tengkyu nat dah ngajarin gw ttg byk hal.. Tengkyu juga dah ngajak gw ikut smart contest bio wkt itu.. kalo ga da lo mgkn sampe skarang gw blom perna ngerasain gmn ikut lomba ngewakilin skolah kali hahaha.. Biarpun cm sekedar smart contest doang, tapi itu pengalaman yang cukup brati bwt gw hehe.. Maap wkt itu gw maw lomba aja ribet banget yakh keknya huahuahua..
Audrey, gw bersyukur bisa kenal sama orang spt lo.. Dari crita hidup lo, gw banyak belajar buat lebi bersyukur dengan apa yang gw punya skarang.. Jgn slalu menganggap kalo diri lo itu rendah ya drey,, diri lo tuh BERHARGA!! Jgn biarin masa lalu lo ngehalangin lo buat maju.. U’re NOT alone cause Jesus loves u so much n so do I..
Vlis, senangnya denger lo crita2 ma gw.. Dulu pas klas 1, lo, gw, jenifer ma erlia udah kyk ape aja kemana2 berempat haha.. Neva forget it =)
Erlia, tengkyu ya dah ngajak gw pegi2 wkt itu bareng temen2.. Tapi maap banget kalo gw ga perna bisa ikut,, entah napa pergi sama lo pada adaaaaa aja hambatannya huhu T.T
Ulay, makan yang banyak dong layyyyy hwhw.. Sering2 msn dong,, kok kaw tak muncul2 lagi si di msn?! Huhu T.T
Ichul, gw pasti bosen liat muka lo di atma tiap hari nanti hahaha.. nggak deng,, JK =P
Angie Valentine, gw sedih lo cepet banget ternyata pegi ke amriknya.. Gw bahkan blom sempet ke RG sama lo T.T Tapi gw seneng banget, biarpun kita gak gt deket, tapi kita bisa saling support ttg Tuhan ^^ Ciayo njie,, biarpun lo jauh dari RG dan temen2 lo yang laen, tapi lo gak akan perna jauh dari Yesus =) Lo pasti dipake luar biasa disana!! Keep growing n serve Him yah ^^ GBNjie..
Icha, kaw ko2ku yang paling baekk hahah.. Makasi udah jemputin ke prom n bantuin blanja baksos wkt itu.. Mpe pulang masuk angin gara2 duduk di depan kipas angin pas ngebungkusin goody bag nya ya wkwk.. keep contact kehh??
Andrew, kartul BI nya dah selse blom?! Wkwk.. kapan kaw mau ke BIG? Huhu T.T Jgn sombong2 ma dD yaa kalo dah pisah hoho =P
Tilu, aaaarrrrrrggghhhhhhh ntar ga bisa msn lagi sama lo kalo lo dah cabut ke swiss!! Huaaa... Jgn sering bengong til,, gw jadi sedih kalo liat lo murung gara2 mikirin “itu”.. udah,, lupakan sajaa.. kaw pasti bisa!! Hoho..
Hans, yuks foto yerbuk lageh ahaha.. Panas2an udah kyk kena kutukan wkt itu kita huhauhuaahua.. Btw,, lo gak salah kirim sms lagi ke gw hans??! Wkwk =P
Yan, buncittttttt!! Makan molo kaw hahaha.. demen banget lo ngegenjet gw,, masih kurang mejret yakh gw?!! Ahahah.. =P
Andreas, kangen doa novena bareng lagi ndre hehe.. wkt itu kita mpe nyaris lupa2 jem 9 tepat doa yakh haha.. knapa lo cepet banget si peginya ke malay? Gw blom perna sempet jalan ma lo kyknya huhu.. Makanya kita ke eastern n skating dulu yakh sblom lo pegi hwhw.. Trus ntar gw bakal keilangan ama orang yang suka mlesetin nama gw seenak jidad. KRUPUKTRUKCRID.KUCRID KECIPRID.ASCRID.UCRID. dan smua nama2 aneh laen yang lu ucapinnya asal ikut kmana lidah lo gerak aje hauhuahuhaua.. geblek dagh haha.. dasar tukang parkir =P
Marcell, temen msn gw yang paling rajin nyapa hoho.. ternyata lo bawel kalo di msn, tapi kalo ketemu dah kyk tembok diem aja huahuahua =P
Ricky, blajar bio lagi yuks sini!! Tulang hasta bahasa latinnya apa hayo ric?! Wkwk.. Tabah ya dibuli2 ma autis =P
Alvin, calon pengusaha sukses masa depan.. Gw pengen beli bacang lo lagi dong vin wkwk.. Kok dah lama gak jualan si? hwhw.. Btw, ati2 kena matahari, ntar kulitnya gosong huahuahuahua =P
Julian, prom king... Dah lama ga blajar barenggggg... dulu langganan blajar brg,, mpe ke perpus ngerjain resensi bi sgala haha.. dah lama jg ga ngomongin dvd ma lo wkwk.. jadi gak beli gantungan star wars gobannya?! Huahuahua..

Tengkyu jg yah buat smua temen2 yang lain, yang gak bisa gw sebutin satu2 (maap,, huhu T.T)

Makasi buat smua kejadian yang udah kita alamin bersama, smua suka duka, air mata dan tawa.. Krn smuanya itu uda turut mewarnai hari2 gw.. Makasi udah menerima gw apa adanya, udah maw jadi sahabat gw, udah memperhatikan gw, udah mensupport gw, udah baik ma gw.. Gw gak kebayang kalo gw gak punya lo smua,, apa jadinya hari2 gw di SMA??

Sampai kapan pun,, kita akan tetap sahabat.. Dan sampai kapan pun,, gw akan tetap sayang ma lo smua =)

It's not a goodbye, it's just a farewell..
Hope that our friendship will never end

Terima kasih yaa... Aku sayang kalian ^^