- "2014, a year of BLESSINGS." -

I believe that this 2014 is a year full of blessings for me and my family..

Thank You for all Your blessings that we've received so far, Jesus!

I know You've not done yet,

this must be just the beginning 

of more overflowing blessings to come..

We wanna say thank You with all of our hearts

and we can't wait to receive the next, the next,

and the next ones from You!

Still strongly believing that Your time is PERFECT!

I love You, Jesus! :)

- "Merry XMAS 2013" -

Dear all clients, family and friends,

I'm wishing you a joyful 

and

MERRY CHRISTMAS!
Be blessed in all the way :)

With love,

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Accidentally found an old letter for a "friend"
written by me..

and hell yeah,

my tears rolled over again.

What a tough life I've been passing through :")

- "happy BELATED new year!" -

Hi guys,
I'm really really sorry for haven't posted anything this quite long time because I've been so busy with my Scientific Writing (SW) :(
I've been so tired dealing with my SW every single day, even thinking about it every MINUTE, and I can't find my mood to write anything on my blog yet.. Huff. Really sorry about it T.T
Actually there are TONS OF THINGS that I want to share with you, guys.. But I really can't find the right time and mood to write it down on my blog :(
But I promise that I'll post more and more blogs right after I finish my SW! :D
Can't wait to share to you about my little reflection of 2011, how I spent my X'Mas and New Year, my resolutions for 2012, my results of the last semester, what happened to my SW, etc!! Quite a lot of "untold" stories, eh?! haha..
I do really miss those quality "blogging" time :')
Please keep checking out my blog and give some comments ok ^^

Anyway, last but not least, I want to say:

Wish you a super great year ahead!
More blessing. More love. More success. More patient. More luck.
Amennn ^^

Missing you a lot,

XOXO

- Astrid Marcella -

- "my TEACHING Practicum." -

I've finally  finished my teaching practicum (PPL) at SMA St. Theresia :D

There were really LOTS of tears and laughter during all the preparation and the teaching practicum itself.. My first teaching was on Wednesday, 19th of August 2011.. Oh God, I was super nervous at that time! I even got a stomachache right a day before my first teaching bcos I was too nervous and afraid. Guess what, I couldn't even laugh a bit at that time haha -.-"

I'm gonna share to you some simple highlights and reflections of every teaching that I've done.. Enjoy! :)

1st teaching (Wednesday, 19 August 2011)
Class: X-3
Skill: Reading (Narrative Text)
Well.. It was one of my worst preparation of teaching, I guess. I planned to teach by using some power point slides bcos actually the school has provided a projector in each of the class. I prepared the slides very well and designed them to be as interesting for the students as I could. But unfortunately an incident happened at the class. The projector didn't work. It couldn't be connected to my laptop. Wew.. I was panic and it wasted almost 15 minutes of my teaching time, which the total time was ONLY 45 minutes!! Grrr. At last the projector still didn't work so I had to explain the materials by writing them on the whiteboard in a rush of time! (can  you imagine how long did it take to write almost all the materials on the whiteboard?) Geezzz.. &*#$@!
Yeah, it was terrible. *deep sigh*

2nd teaching (Wednesday, 7 September 2011)
Class: XII IPA 2
Skill: Writing (Explanation Text)
Haha.. This is the most SILENT class I've ever taught! Can't you imagine teaching a skill of writing at 7 a.m. with SUPER PASSIVE students that refused to answer anything I asked?? It was really EXHAUSTING, you know. I got out of the class with a lost voice bcos I had to talk a lot n loudly but almost nobody answered my questions. It drove me crazyyyyyyy!! Erghh.

3rd teaching (Monday, 12 September 2011)
Class: XII IPS 1
Skill: Listening (Report Text)
A contrast from my 2nd class that I taught, this class was very messy and the students were talkactive and quite naughty. Maybe it was bcos I taught them at the listening laboratorium, not at their own class, so they might feel that the lesson was not too important.. They came late and slowly to the lab and when they all have gathered there, they kept making fun and telling jokes to each other. I faced some difficulties to control that class, really. But it's okay, they made the class became lively and quite fun haha.. I thought it's better to have a super active class rather than a super passive class, indeed.

4th teaching (Friday, 16 September 2011)
Class: X-4
Skill: Speaking (Narrative Text)
The teaching was not bad.. The students were generally okay. What made it hard was I taught them 12.00,  which was very hot and the students' were lazy and tired already haha.. But I was glad bcos there were some active students who were cooperative (I still remember exactly their names and faces) and they made everything much easier for me :)

5th teaching (Wednesday, 21 September 2011)
Class: XI IPS 3
Skill: Speaking (Report Text)
THIS IS MY BEST CLASS EVER! Haha.. They students were very very cooperative and nice! Though a few of them didn't pay much attention to my teaching and kept chitchatting at the back of the class, but the other rest of the class gave their full attention and participation to me :)
They were so active in answering what I asked to them and they seemed so enthusiastic! Some of them were even quickly raised their hands when I asked them to perform their tasks in front of the class.. My teaching also went very smoothly and I enjoyed it very much ^^
I really really really love XI IPS 3!! Thanks my dear students, for giving me the  best class I've ever taught.. Gonna always remember you all! :)

6th teaching (Wednesday, 12 October 2011)
Class: XII IPS 3
Skill: Writing (Discussion Text)

We took this pic at Mam Awied's room
when we were consulting the LP for our 6th teaching

Hmm.. I didn't really enjoy teaching this class bcos this class was similar to XII IPA 2 which I taught on my 2nd teaching.. A passive class. But this class was just a little bit better bcos the students were still involved in the brainstorming activity. The hardest part was when I assigned them to do the exercise, most of them didn't do it seriously. Some of them were talking to each other,  making some jokes, even a student fell asleep and another student was daydreaming. Perfect, right?! Hahaha.. :P
Maybe the topic of the material was quite hard so they were not too interested. Huff.

7th teaching (Wednesday, 19 October 2011)
Class: XI IPA 1
Skill: Reading (Exposition Text: Analytical and Hortatory)

Me and my last Lesson Plan for this class!

It was my last teaching and my observation day. My lecturer from Atma Jaya also came with us to the school to observed my and my friends' teaching at class. The observation score will be counted as my final exam score for the teaching practicum subject. It made me feel nervous again. But I really tried to give my best teaching. Luckily, my class was nice and cooperative enough. Some of them often answered my questions actively and they seemed quite enthusiastic. It was not as bad as what I imagined before.. :)

Thanks God I've finally done my long and tiring journey of teaching practicum. Yet it was so unforgettable. A week has just passed by, but I miss the students and English teachers at SMA St. Theresia already :')

Thanks for the strength I got from my Jesus Christ :)
And all the support and prayers from my family, my best friends, and my lovely Kevin :)
Without you all I might not be strong enough to do this exhausting teaching practicum.. A bunch of thanks to you guys! I love you! (",)

Last Wednesday me and my friends went back to SMA St. Theresia to say thanks to the teachers and gave them some certificates and gifts. We  also took some pictures there ^^

Here it is.. SMA St. Theresia ^^

With our beloved lecturer and English teachers

In front of the Goa Maria

At the canteen :)

Our little "aquarium" :P

Our  memorable bangku kayu

We had a little celebration at GI :)

So this is it.. Our dream that comes true! :')

Last pic taken there in front of the gate

Good bye SMA St. Theresia.. Thanks for every precious experiences and moments with  you.. Gonna miss you soon! :)

- "new EMAIL address." -

Guys,
I'm changing my email address from monyetminumbir@yahoo.com into astrid.marcella@yahoo.com since now and then..
Actually I have been using my stupid-yet-unique address of email "monyetminumbir" for the past 7 years and it's been one of my 1st emails that I have haha.. I DO love that email address though some people don't and think that I'm a bit crazy :P
Well.. At least it's a memorable address of an email, right? ^^

I made my first NORMAL email address, "astrid.marcella", at the first time I entered the university. At that time one of my lecturers asked my email to send some assignments, I was ashamed to tell her that my email was "monyetminumbir", so I created a new normal email address then haha :P
I planned to use my old email to operate some of the social networks such as FB, twitter, blog, skype, etc. and use my new email for sending and receiving any kinds of assignments or emails related to the university or any other formal institutional works. But unfortunately, I came back again using my old one coz actually I'm a kinda person that doesn't like using 2 emails at the same time. At the end, I will only activate one of them which I use the most.. Haha..

Well.. I think it's time for me to use a better and more "professional" email address than the "monyetminumbir" one.. I'm doing my Scientific Writing this semester and my advisor prefers to send everything about my SW through my second "normal" email.. So I have no other choice, as what I've told before, I would rather use one active email only. So I think it's better for me to start moving to my second email, changing my social networks emails into "astrid.marcella@yahoo.com" and leaving my old unique one :')

Hihi I'm a bit sad knowing that I'm not gonna use my unique email address anymore coz that email has given me a lot of memories for the past 7 years.. I've sent and received so many assignments, notes, reflections, stories, reminders, letters from my relatives and friends, and even spams and junks ^^
And it's been like an "identity" for me every time anybody asks me about what my email address is :)

But yeah I know I can't use that email forever though. Sooner or later I have to change my email with a more proper address regarding to my professionalism and increasing age..

So guys, from now on, please kindly change my email address into
astrid.marcella@yahoo.com :)

I'll activate it and this email is ready to do its job for me! :D

Good bye my memorable "monyetminumbir@yahoo.com".. Thanks for helping me in the past 7 years :)

Wanna go back to my childhood years..

When there was just me,

a bottle of milk

and my favorite doll in my arms for the whole days.

No homework.

No exams.

No responsibilities!

HAHA :P

My 7th semester finally begins.

Hopefully it's gonna be my last semester in university..

God bless me! *amennn* :)

- "My 21 on 21st." -


21st of July 2011 has been one of the most unforgettable special days for me (",)
I had my 21st birthday surrounded by the people whom I love so much for the whole day and they really made my day great and precious :D

In the morning I wake up with no special feeling.. I thought that it would be just like an ordinary day.. Actually that morning I wasn't in a good mood to celebrate my bday coz I've just had a fight with my mom the night before.. So without having any spirit I woke up and found so many bday greetings and wishes sent by my friends and relatives to my BB.. Then I had my breakfast alone downstairs and still.. Nothing special that could boost my mood up and be more cheerful.. I got to my room and browsed some websites just by myself..

Until suddenly my very best friend and her boy appeared in front of my house bringing a bday cake and a present for me!! Wew I was so surprised to see them waiting in front of my gate, so I changed my cloth and rushed quickly downstairs to see them ^^
Then we took some pics together in my living room, just like what we usually do from year to year :)

*me and the bday cake from her*

*my BFF's boy, me, and my very best friend*

Their surprising presence has boosted up my mood and made me feel more cheerful at that time..

Hey really thanks for the special surprise to both of you, Ria and Hartono :)

Thanks for willingly being stucked in a bad traffic jam on your way to my house.. You guys had successfully cheered me up!! :D

In the afternoon my lovely boyfriend, Kevin, picked me up to his home.. Surprisingly his mom gave me a bday present right when I've just reached his home.. I was so surprised coz I had never expected it :')

Then the surprised hasn't been over yet, not long after that my boy asked me to come downstairs and he closed my eyes with his hand.. And when I opened my eyes, his sister was standing in front of me and holding a bday cake with candles on the top of it ^^

*slicing the cake*

A big bite of cake for my Honey! ^^

*L.O.V.E*

*me and his sister :)*

I was so happy at that time and I was speechless for all these sweet things that my boy and his family has given to me :")

A bunch of thanks for the sweet surprises dear Kevin, Angel, and Kevin's mom! (",)

In the evening, Kevin joined the bday dinner with my family :)

Before going to the restaurant, we ate fried noodle and took a family picture together..

=)

Hey.. This is my first time in my whole life that I can spend my birthday with the presence of a BOYFRIEND :')

From year to year I always spent my bday with my bestiest and family, but this year God has made it more complete by the presence of Kevin (",)

Thanks God for finally letting me had a complete special bday ^^

My joy and gladness hasn't been over yet.. On Saturday, 23rd of July 2011, I had a simple but cheerful bday lunch with my bestiest at Sushi Grill, Meruya :)

Sulis and Juju gave me another bday cake and present there ^^

*they gave me another present :D*

*and another bday cake..*

*with love :)*

*you guys are irreplaceable bestiest! (",)*

Thank you for coming and accompanying me to start my 21st year in my life, guys! =)

Finally.. A birthday surrounded by my complete lovely ones! (",)

A kind of bday that I've always been praying and longing for through so many years.. :')

Each of your presence really completes all the pieces of puzzle of my life.. Without any each of you, my puzzle would be incomplete again.. So please stay in my life n my heart forever, going through years together coz I do really love you all so much =)

Thank You, Jesus, for giving each of them in my life..

I'd be forever grateful.. :D

- "In my 20th.." -

It's been July 26..
I planned to write a reflection on my birthday eve, but unfortunately I wasn't able to write it at that time for several reasons.. So today I decided to write a little reflection of a year that I had just passed behind through this posting.. :)

I just want to lift up all my gratitude to Jesus Christ, my Lord, for He has given me a beautiful life for these past 20 years in my life.. :')
Looking back to a year ago, I began my 20th with a prayer and so many wishes in my heart.. There were lots of things happened in the past 1 year, not only the good things but also some bad things.. But I never regret everything coz I know that even every single experience teaches me to be who I am now ^^

In my 20th..
I enthusiastically learnt how to drive..
Though I failed and still unable to drive now, but it's been a great experience for me sitting in the driver's seat :P

In my 20th..
I often spent my leisure time cooking some meals and trying some new recipes from the internet or magazines..
Though sometimes my cooking wasn't too delicious, but I still do love cooking! (",)

In my 20th..
I fell in love with a boy and started a relationship with him..
Though I chose a wrong relationship and it ended painfully, but it made me stronger and wiser now :)

In my 20th..
I became a singer in Worship Night 2011 "Shout to the Lord!"..
Though I had to attend so many rehearsals and they were highly tiring, but I was so grateful coz He gave me a chance to serve Him in that kind of big event for the last time.. :')

In my 20th...
My best friend, Ria Wulandari, had her 20th bday..
I gave her a special scrapbox which I made so carefully and full-heartedly ^^

In my 20th..
I finally found my true love..
Finally God answers my and my best friend's prayers that He sent me a man who truly loves me and always takes care of me with all of his heart :')

Thanks for everything that I've been through in my 20th, God..
YOUR blessings for me are indescribably countless.. They are just too many and overwhelming :')
No other words that I can say except "THANK YOU" for all Your guidance, blessings, and love that You've given to me through the lovely people around me in every single day (",)

Just.. THANK YOU so much, Jesus :')

- "Thank GOD." -

Hey I really thank GOD coz I've passed the 6th semester in my study, one of the hardest and most challenging semesters! :)

Though my GPA really drops down, but I've tried to give my best and I wanna keep being thankful to God for HIS guidance through this tough semester.. At least I was succeeded in passing 2 deathly classes of Pak Marcell, one of the most famous "killing" senior lecturers, who was very demanding towards his students. Besides, I've also passed Yohe's class of drama, one of the most frightening classes ever with an A score in hand :)
Thanks, Jesus. I know that I can't do it without You giving me the strength and ability.. ^^

Now I'm entering a new semester which I wish would be my last semester in this university.. Excited? Yaph. But with a bit of fright and worry whether I could handle doing my Scientific Writing (SW) along with the Teaching Practicum at Secondary High School (PPL) together and finish them within approximately less than 6 months or not.. I know that it wouldn't be easy, but I believe if I start it with God, He will guide and bless me until I can finish it on time :)

Dear God,
one thing that I've always been longing for is making the results of my study to glorify Your name and bringing happiness to my parents :')
I know that You'll always hold my hands till the end to help me reaching that dream :')

- "a HECTIC week." -

Pfiuhh.. This week has been one of the most hectic weeks in this semester.. I've got 4 final papers to be finished and 1 deadly sitting exam of Language Testing within approximately 2 weeks! -.-"

Here they are:

1. Seminar -> at least 20 pages

2. Language Testing -> at least 40 pages

3. Drama -> at least 4000 words (around 8-10 pages)

4. Etika Profesi -> at least 15 pages

Thanks God I've finished the Seminar and Language Testing papers and I've submitted them yesterday though I had to have a sleepless night and slept only for 2 hours yesterday hehe :P

Now only 2 papers left, the individual ones which should be submitted next week.. I'm gonna give my best efforts!! Really wish that I could pass all the subjects I take with good grades :) Amiinnnn ^^ 

Pray for me.. ;)

S.E.M.A.N.G.A.T Astrid Marcella!! (",)

Sometimes I think men should experience the pain of women's period time once in their lifetime so they would appreciate women better.. :P

- "Happy EASTER 2011" -

Hey..
Happy Easter all!

Let's shout HALLELUJAH to the world for God has victoriously risen! ^^

- "I LIE everything DOWN to Your guidance.." -

Aku baru saja memasuki semester ke 6 dalam studi S1 ku di awal minggu ini.. Ya, baru saja kulewati semester pendek terakhirku satu minggu yang lalu..
Perasaanku begitu campur aduk.
Senang, karena akhirnya aku memasuki tahun terakhirku *amin* di kuliah ini..
Sedih, karena itu berarti waktuku untuk berada di kampus tercintaku ini semakin menipis :')
Takut, karena aku tau semester 6 ini bukanlah semester yang mudah.. Walaupun tinggal tersisa 4 mata kuliah yang dapat kuambil di semester ini, namun mata kuliahnya sangat menantang, terlebih lagi dosen2nya..
Tertantang, karena aku tau jika aku berhasil melewati semester ini dengan nilai yang memuaskan, maka rasa lega yang amat sangat akan menantiku..
Penasaran, akan ilmu apa saja yang akan kudapati di semester baru ini..

Kemarin dua nilai mata kuliah yang kuambil di semester pendek kemarin keluar.. Jujur aku cukup kecewa dengan nilai mata kuliah Research yang hanya B-. Aku merasa usaha yang telah kulakukan bagi kelas itu tidaklah sebanding dengan nilai yang kudapatkan. Aku sempat cukup merasa sedih dan down sejenak karena nilai B- di mata kuliah 3 sks ini telah menjatuhkan IPK ku.. Ya, benar2 sangat menjatuhkan IPK ku yang notabene dengan susah payah kujaga dan kutingkatkan semester demi semester sejak awal kuliahku.. Mimpiku untuk meraih gelar cum laude dan menerima cincin dari Atma Jaya di akhir studi membuatku selalu bersemangat dalam menjalani kuliahku.. Dan ketika kemarin aku menghitung IPK ku setelah nilai Research keluar, sungguh aku sempat merasa sangat sedih dan pesimis.. Tanpa sengaja aku meneteskan air mata :')

Terlebih lagi aku merasa down karena aku tau bahwa aku mungkin tak dapat banyak berharap akan mendapatkan IP yang tinggi di semester 6 ini.. Aku merasa peluang untuk menaikkan IP sangat kecil.. Memang, sangat kecil bukan berarti tidak ada harapan sama sekali. Harapan tetap ada, namun sungguh, aku tak berani menaruh harapan terlalu tinggi di semester ini karena aku takut aku akan sangat down jika tak dapat memenuhi mimpi dan harapan itu..

Tetapi satu hal, aku percaya bahwa tangan Tuhan akan tetap menyertaiku :)
Aku akan tetap berusaha untuk memberikan yang terbaik sampai akhir.. Aku percaya bahwa Ia akan memampukanku.. Dan apabila Ia mengijinkan aku meraih setiap mimpi2 yang Ia taruh di hatiku, maka Ia sendiri yang akan membukakan jalan.. Tidak ada yang mustahil bagi Dia..
Namun jika ternyata aku tak berhasil untuk menggapainya, maka aku akan tetap bersyukur.. Sebab aku tau bahwa ada suatu makna serta pembelajaran lain yang ingin Ia sampaikan bagiku dan pasti itulah yang terbaik untukku :')

Aku mau terus taruh segenap cita-cita, mimpi, dan usahaku ke dalam tangan penyertaanNya.. Sambil terus berusaha sebaik yang kumampu :)

A year ago, 18th January 2010,
I started my first job as a teacher..
And thank God I've been teaching for exactly a year now!
Time flies so fast.. (",)

- "You're my AWESOME God!" -

Hey,, last night was a very wonderful and marvelous night!! :D

Walaupun aku sempat merasa bahwa persiapan Worship Night "SHOUT TO THE LORD" Hieronimus kemarin masih kurang, tetapi puji Tuhan kalo semuanya boleh berjalan dengan begitu lancar dan luar biasa :)
Segala kekuatiran dan ketakutan yang kurasakan saat gladiresik tidak berjalan sesuai dengan rencana seketika itu juga sirna..
Hmm.. Sepertinya aku benar2 kehilangan kata2 untuk menggambarkan perasaanku berada di atas panggung dan melayani ratusan umat yang hadir di auditorium Yustinus lantai 15.. No words can describe my gratitude and feeling ^^

Perasaanku saat ini benar-benar campur aduk.. Antara bersyukur, namun juga sedih..

Bersyukur karena Dia memilih dan memberikan kesempatan bagiku untuk ikut melayani Dia sebagai tim pujian di acara besar seperti Worship Night ini, bahkan 2 kali dalam setengah tahun terakhir ini..
Bersyukur karena aku tau bahwa gak semua orang memiliki dan mau menerima kesempatan seperti ini..
Bersyukur atas apa yang telah Dia perbuat lewat acara2 ini..
Bersyukur karena aku boleh melihat karya dan penyertaanNya yang begitu luar biasa dalam pelayanan2ku selama ini..

Namun di sisi lain aku juga merasa sedih..
Sedih karena aku tau mungkin kemarin adalah WN terakhirku sebagai panitia dan tim pujian..
Sedih karena aku tau bahwa keluargaku tak sepenuhnya mendukung apa yang aku lakukan..
Sedih karena walaupun di saat2 mendatang aku diberi kesempatan untuk melayani di acara besar lagi, namun mungkin aku tak lagi bisa menerimanya..
Sedih karena aku sadar bahwa waktuku melayani di Hieronimus sudah semakin sedikit..
Ya, ini adalah tahun terakhir studiku di kampus Atma Jaya, yang berarti tahun terakhirku pula di kepengurusan Hieronimus..

Hmm..
Jika boleh memilih, aku ingin sekali bisa terus melayani Dia dalam setiap kesempatan, baik besar maupun kecil..
Jika boleh berharap, aku ingin sekali merasakan dukungan seluruh keluargaku atas pelayanan2ku..
Tetapi rasanya itu hal yang sulit..

Namun aku mau terus percaya, bahwa "sulit" bukan berarti "tidak mungkin".
Aku mau terus percaya bahwa ketika aku terus taruh kerinduanku untuk melayani Dia, maka Dia yang akan berikan kesempatan dan bukakan jalan bagiku..
Aku berharap semalam bukanlah pelayanan terakhirku sebagai panitia dan tim pujian WN :')

Terima kasih Tuhan, terutama untuk setiap kesempatan bagiku untuk melayaniMu di Worship Night, baik di WN Shekinah maupun WN Hieronimus..
Setiap detik melayaniMu sunguh begitu berharga dan selalu menjadi saat2 yang tak akan pernah kulupakan :)
I'm gonna miss those moments so much :')

Thanks for everything, Lord!
You made me got through it all :)
YOU're always gonna be my AWESOME God!! ^^
I love You, Jesus! (",)

*the AMAZING and UNFORGETTABLE moment*

Let's SHOUT to the Lord and rock the heaven!! :D

- "happy NEW YEAR!!" -

Heyyyy HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011 all! :)
I spent this new year eve at Puncak with my family and my brother's girlfriend.. I didn't have any internet connection there so I couldn't write my blog to say happy new year to you hehe..

Anyway, I want to say thanks to the people that were in my life through 2010..

Thanks to those who HATED me,
they made me a stronger person

Thanks to those who LOVED me,
they made my heart bigger

Thanks to those who were WORRIED about me,
they let me know that they actually cared

Thanks to those who LEFT me,
they made me realize that nothing lasts forever

Thanks to those who ENTERED my life,
they made me who I am today

Just want to THANK YOU for being there in my life whatever I might have meant to you.

Let everything be new! (",)
Happy new year 2011!!
God bless us through the following new year :)

- "a REFLECTION of mine.." -

Here I'm standing back at the end of the year..
Everything that I've been through during this whole year, has been recorded in my heart and mind, either the sweet or the bitter ones..
Now let me recall a little reflection and the highlights of my life for the past one year, especially :)

.. JANUARI 2010 ..

Gw membuka tahun 2010 ini dengan begitu banyak doa dan pengharapan yang baru.. Gw sangat menaruh banyak harapan atas pemulihan hati dan hidup gw, terutama. Gw ingat saat itu gw masih sangat berjuang untuk melupakan seseorang yang menyakiti hati gw dengan amat sangat.. Dan setiap harinya gw berdoa agar mendapatkan kekuatan yang baru..
Di bulan Januari ini pula gw mendapatkan sebuah pekerjaan sebagai guru bahasa inggris di sebuah lembaga bahasa inggris, Brilliant Study Centre. Ya, ini adalah pekerjaan pertama gw :)
Saat itu gw sangat bimbang, apakah gw memang sebaiknya menerima tawaran pekerjaan ini atau tidak, karena gw takut gw gak cukup sanggup untuk kuliah sambil bekerja.. Gw takut pekerjaan gw akan mempengaruhi kuliah gw.. Tetapi setelah berdoa dan berkonsultasi dengan keluarga dan sahabat-sahabat gw, akhirnya gw memberanikan diri untuk menerima pekerjaan ini.. Dan yahh.. Puji Tuhan bahkan gw dapat bertahan mengajar hingga saat ini tanpa mengganggu kuliah gw ^^

.. FEBRUARI 2010 ..

Bulan Februari adalah salah satu bulan tersibuk dalam tahun ini. Ada begitu banyak hal yang harus gw lakukan dan perhatikan. Kuliah di semester padat. Mengajar. PD Hiero. PD BiG. Pembentukan dan pelantikan pengurus Hiero periode 2010. Panitia RHDR Hieronimus untuk bulan Maret. Ketua panitia ret-ret tim BiG untuk di akhir bulan Februari ini. Pfiuh.
Tapi gw bersyukur sangat karena kesibukan gw ini membantu gw mengalihkan pikiran gw dari setiap permasalahan dan luka hati gw.. Dan puji Tuhan semuanya boleh berjalan dengan lancar dan terkendali :)

*pelantikan pengurus Hiero 2010*

.. MARET 2010 ..

Pada tanggal 13-15 Maret 2010, RHDR Hieronimus diadakan di Puncak Kana.. Walaupun sempat mengalami berbagai hambatan baik secara teknis maupun rohani, tetapi bersyukur banget kalo RHDR ini boleh berjalan dengan lancar dan memberkati banyak orang.. Berawal dari bertugas sebagai WL di RHDR ini, gw ditawari untuk menjadi WL di acara Worship Night 5 Shekinah di bulan Juni.. Sungguh sesuatu yang tak pernah terlintas sama sekali dalam benak gw selama ini! Gw sampai terheran-heran dan tak percaya bahwa Tuhan memang memilih gw untuk melayani Dia sebagai WL WN 5.. Tetapi ada begitu banyak ketakutan dan kekuatiran dalam hati gw yang membuat gw ragu untuk berkata "ya" hingga akhirnya gw gak berani untuk memberikan jawaban..

*panitia dan peserta RHDR*

Hmm.. Di bulan ini pula pada akhirnya gw mendapati diri gw berhasil membuka hati kembali untuk orang lain setelah gw disakiti.. Gw cukup dekat dengan seorang cowo dan jujur gw mulai menaruh harapan pada dia..

.. APRIL 2010 ..

4 Maret 2010, gw berhasil menuntaskan puasa dan pantang daging gw selama 46 hari dalam rangka mempersiapkan diri untuk menyambut paskah :)
Inilah pertama kalinya gw berhasil berpuasa dan berpantang penuh, tanpa bolong-bolong hehe.. Thanks God He made me through everything :)
Dan pada akhirnya di awal bulan ini gw memberanikan diri untuk menerima tawaran menjadi WL WN 5 Shekinah.. Sungguh sebuah keputusan yang tak mudah dan penuh tanggung jawab, namun gw membulatkan hati untuk menerimanya dan berusaha untuk mempersembahkan yang terbaik buat Dia..
Tetapi sayang sekali, di bulan April ini hati gw kembali terluka.. Cowo yang dekat dengan gw itu diam-diam memilih teman gw dan perlahan-lahan menjauh dari gw.. Dia hanya meninggalkan bekas luka dan menguak kembali trauma dalam hidup gw :'(
Sekali lagi gw harus belajar untuk mengampuni dan melepaskan.. Sungguh sesuatu yang tak mudah.. Pfiuh.

.. MEI 2010 ..

Bulan Mei dipenuhi dengan berbagai latihan band dan akustik untuk mempersiapkan WN. Hati dan perasaan gw seringkali diguncang dalam mempersiapkan WN ini.. Ada banyak hal yang membuat gw down, membuat gw merasa ragu dan gak yakin untuk tetap maju melangkah.. Tetapi gw berusaha sangat keras agar segala hambatan dan guncangan itu gak menghalangi gw untuk melayani Dia secara maksimal di WN nanti.. Satu per satu latihan-latihan gw jalani.. Latihan di gading malam-malam naik motor dari Atma ke studio Chronicles di gading. Berusaha menyatukan hati dengan setiap personil tim pujian lain yang sama sekali gak gw kenal. Berusaha menjaga jam doa dan puasa dengan tekun. Hmm.. Berat namun sungguh tak terlupakan :)

.. JUNI 2010 ..

Akhirnyaaa.. 6 Juni 2010 berhasil untuk dilewati juga. Worship Night 5 Shekinah. Melayani sebagai WL penyembahan pun berhasil gw lalui bersama Dia.. Walaupun ada begitu banyak air mata, ketegangan, kekuatiran, ketakutan, kelelahan, dan kesesakan yang harus gw jalani selama persiapan WN ini, namun semuanya itu sungguh terbayar saat gw dapati WN boleh berjalan dengan begitu luar biasa! Tiba-tiba segala pengorbanan gw dalam mempersiapkan WN ini tidak berarti apa-apa dibandingkan pekerjaan besar yang telah Dia lakukan lewat WN ini :)
Terima kasih, Tuhan, atas kesempatan ini.. Sungguh gw tak henti-hentinya bersyukur melihat pekerjaan Dia yang begitu luar biasa lewat pengalaman melayani Dia di sebagai WL WN ini.. Dan tak terhitung berkat dan sukacita yang Dia curahkan.. Thank You, Lord! ^^

*melayani di WN 5*

.. JULI 2010 ..

Bulan Juli selalu menjadi bulan yang istimewa dan gw tunggu-tunggu karena di bulan ini gw berulang tahun :)
Gw melewati ulang tahun gw dengan keluarga dan sahabat-sahabat yang gw kasihi.. Thanks for all the loves, surprises, bday presents, and your presence guys! (",)
Really love you all.. I wish next year I could celebrate my birthday with you all too :)
Rekoleksi tim Hiero juga diadakan di bulan Juli ini.. Ada banyak pemulihan hubungan antar tim yang terjadi dan gw sangat bersyukur atas hal itu.. Overall, bulan Juli adalah salah satu bulan terbaik gw dalam tahun ini.. Gw sangat menikmati libur antar semester gw tiap harinya.. Gw les nyetir mobil, bikin SIM, masak, pergi jalan-jalan dengan keluarga dan teman-teman, reuni, nonton, nginep, dll.. I really enjoyed this month! :)

*my special bday with special friends*

.. AGUSTUS 2010 ..

Semester 5 dimulaiii.. Pheww.. Back to campus! Back to reality! No more leisure time, no more cooking, no more taking a nap at the afternoon haha.. Gw kembali menjalani segala aktivitas dan kesibukan gw.. Kuliah 10 mata kuliah (24 sks), mengajar, pelayanan, keluarga.. Mantap! hehe :P
Tapi gw menjalani semuanya dengan sukacita dan rasa syukur :)
Oya, seorang cowo yang kurang lebih satu tahun lalu pernah mendekati gw, sekarang tiba-tiba muncul kembali dalam hidup gw dan dia kembali mendekati gw.. Entah mengapa gw mulai kembali merasa nyaman dengan dia hingga akhirnya hubungan kami pun menjadi cukup dekat lagi :)

.. SEPTEMBER 2010 ..

Di bulan September ini ada MIA! Gw dan beberapa anak Hiero sibuk mempersiapkan presentasi PD di MIA nanti.. Tetapi puji Tuhan kalo akhirnya semuanya boleh berjalan dengan cukup lancar.. Satu hal yang paling gw ingat, cowo yang mendekati gw ini sampai sengaja menyusul ke puncak dengan beberapa temannya di tengah malam untuk bertemu dengan gw.. Dan disana kami digosipkan oleh hampir semua teman-temannya, bahkan romo Adi pun menggosipkan kami! Haha.. Dia mulai secara jelas memperlihatkan gelagatnya mendekati gw dan memberikan gw perhatian lebih.. Hmm.. He was so sweet that time! *blushing*

*panitia dan undangan MIA*

.. OKTOBER 2010 ..

30 Oktober 2010.. Akhirnya dia menyatakan perasaannya pada gw dan meminta gw untuk menjadi kekasihnya :)
Setelah kedekatan intens kami selama dua bulan terakhir, rasa percaya, serta perasaan nyaman yang gak bisa gw pungkiri ketika gw bersama dia, membuat gw akhirnya menerima dia.. And here we began our love journey.. Kami bersama-sama membangun mimpi-mimpi serta harapan-harapan untuk ke depannya.. Bersama-sama saling mencoba untuk lebih dekat dan menyesuaikan diri :)

*the day we began our journey*

.. NOVEMBER 2010 ..

November was the sweetest month in the year.. I was totally in love with him and I loved him more each day.. Bulan ini begitu banyak hal manis yang kami lalui bersama. Tiba-tiba weekends gw berubah menjadi begitu menyenangkan dan menjadi hal yang paling kami tunggu-tunggu setiap harinya :)
Gw menunggu saat-saat quality time bersama dia.. Dan gak pernah mau melewatkan saat-saat itu dengan sia-sia.. Setiap saat bersama dia terasa begitu berharga dan membuat gw bahagia, begitu pun dengan dia :)
Walaupun sempat ada beberapa masalah dan hambatan dalam hubungan gw, namun gw menjalaninya dengan sukacita lebih karena kini ada dia yang memenuhi hari-hari gw dan menjadi tempat gw mencurahkan perhatian dan kasih sayang.. Hmm.. I will never forget every single moment that I shared with him..

*my precious moments with him*

.. DESEMBER 2010 ..

Badai kembali menghampiri hidup gw. 4 Desember 2010, hubungan gw dan dia harus berakhir. Ya, keadaan memaksanya untuk mengakhiri hubungan kami.. Huff. Gw kehilangan dia. Sangat merasa kehilangan. Berat sekali rasanya harus menjalani UAS dengan kondisi hati yang terluka seperti ini.. Jangankan fokus belajar dan ujian, menjalani hari-hari aja rasanya segan dan tanpa arah.. Pikiran gw begitu terfokus padanya dan permasalahan di antara kami yang belum terselesaikan hingga saat ini.. Segala tawa dan senyuman gw tiba-tiba kembali berubah menjadi tangisan dan air mata.. Sekali lagi gw harus belajar untuk mengampuni dan melepaskan.. Dan juga melupakan. Tetapi gw bersyukur luar biasa karena gw memiliki keluarga dan sahabat-sahabat di samping gw yang menopang gw disaat-saat gw down seperti ini.. Gw bersyukur karena mereka memberikan gw kekuatan lebih untuk menjalani hari-hari ke depan.. Tanpa mereka, gw tau gw gak akan bisa pulih secepat ini.. Tanpa mereka, gw tau hari-hari gw akan terasa jauh lebih berat dan menyakitkan.. Thanks God for sending me the angels like them in my life.. God really bless them all :)

* I really wish I ever had a chance to say good bye to you :'( *

Yeah, this is my life in 2010..
Untuk segala sukacita, gw bersyukur karena gw percaya semua itu diberikan olehNya untuk menjadikan hari-hari gw indah dan penuh warna..
Dan untuk segala hal yang menyakitkan, gw percaya bahwa semuanya itu membuat gw selangkah lagi menjadi lebih kuat dan dewasa..
I'm thankful for everything that I've been through with You, Lord! :)
For I know everything happens for a good reason and Your plans are the best..
Thank You.. Really thank You..
Keep guiding me through the new year that is coming soon, God..
I'll walk with You, always. (",)

- "Finally.. Baliiiiiiiii!" -

BALIIIIIIII here we comeeeeee!! :D
Yeaahhhhhh last night Ria booked an Air Asia flight for the four of us:
Ria, Hartono, me and Sulis
to Bali on July 11-15, 2011 :)
Finally we got the tickets after struggling hard bcos the price was
unpredictably increasing! Pfiuhhh.

But we're soooo happy! hehehe..
Can't wait for that day ^^
Let's make a SAVING SAVING n SAVING starting from now hoho..
Come on Hiero'ers.. Quickly join us!!
The more people, the better! ^^

Thankssssss God for the chance!
*Hugggsssss*
XOXO