- "You know BETTER than I" -

I thought I did what's right 

I thought I had the answers

I thought I chose the surest road

but that road brought me here

So I put up a fight

And told You how to help me

Now just when I have given up

The truth is coming clear

You know better than I

You know the way

I've let go the need to know why

Coz You know better than I

If this has been a test

I cannot see the reason

But maybe knowing I don't know

Is part of getting through

I try to do what's best

And faith has made it easy

To see the best thing I can do

Is put my trust in You

For You know better than I

You know the way

I've let go the need to know why

Coz You know better than I

I saw one cloud and thought it was a sky

I saw one bird and thought that I could follow

But it was You who taught that bird to fly

If I let You  reach me, will You teach me?

For You know better than I

You know the way

I've let go the need to know why

I'll take what answers You supply

You know better than I

-David Campbell-

- "I miss those FEELINGS.." -

I miss those feelings..

When the friendship turns into lovers

When I have the privilege to hold someone dear to me so tightly,

simply just because I know that he's mine

When I can entangle his fingers with mine

and never gonna let him go

When I can stare on his eyes deeply

and tell him how much I love him through these pair of blinking eyes

When I can share him all my stories,

without boundaries and fear of judgement

When I can love and be loved unconditionally

without the fear of losing each other..

I just can't tell.. how much do I miss those feelings.

-"Strangers, AGAIN." -

How people sadly change.

Strangers become FRIENDS,

friends become LOVERS,

and lovers become STRANGERS, again.

- "Thank you, 2013." -

This year I loved.

This year I've lost.

This year I've changed.

This year was hard.

Hard, but I learned a lot.

I've learned that people can be fake.

I've learned that people can hurt you a lot,
without giving a shit about it.

I've learned that good people can change in a minute
when their hearts get broken.

I've met great people, but mean people as well. 

But the most important thing I've learned

is that every person in this world is strong enough to let go.

To let go of that painful past of yours

that broke your heart into million pieces.

People come and go, that's life.

The most important thing is
to stand up and realize

that you deserve something better than a person that gives up on you.

2013, thank you for all the lessons :')

2014, I'm ready.

- "Thank you" -

Someday,

we'll forget the hurt, 

the reason we cried,

and who caused us pain.

We will finally realize 

that the secret of being free

is not revenge,

but letting things unfold

in their own way and own time.

After all,

what matters is not the first,

but the last chapter of our life

which shows how well we ran the race.

So smile,

laugh,

forgive,

and

love all over again.

Sorry and thanks for everything, dear..

Thanks for ever being one of the best parts in my life.

Thanks for ever loving me.

Thanks for ever caring for me.

Thanks for ever brightening my days and enlighten my nights.

Thanks for ever bringing out the best in me.

You'll be forever remain in my heart :)

* 26.01.2011 - 10.07.2013 * 

- " HAPPY 1st anniv :)" -

Hey isn't it 26 January 2012?
It means that me and Kevin have spent our first year in love together!! :) :)
Wew.. Time flies really really fast.
I still remember clearly 365 days ago when he picked me up at the English course where I worked and took me home.. We had our dinner together and finally he told me about his feelings towards me and asked me to be his girlfriend with a lovely white rose in his hand.. :)
That was so sweet. I was speechless at that time but then I finally answered "YES" and he held my hands :")
Since that time, we're dating.
Sharing love, laugh, and tears together every single day.
Supporting, helping and caring each other. <3

I can't imagine what would my days be without him loving me. He has brought a whole amazing year for me and it could never be replaceable with anything.. That special feeling every time he stares at me or holds my hands or just simply says "I LOVE YOU" has given me extra strength each day :)

The feeling I have towards him now has even grown more and more since the 1st time I fell in love with him. I really can't deny it. <3

I LOVE HIM MUCH DEEPER THAN I DID A YEAR AGO..

AND I'M GOING TO LET THIS FEELING GROW MORE AND MORE EVERY SINGLE DAY,

THROUGH THE YEARS AHEAD.. <3

A one year old lovely white rose now :)

Thanks for giving me 365 lovely days :)

HAPPY 1st ANNIVERSARY, dear! <3

Happy 11 months my dearest
KEVIN OARTO! :D

Although we can't spend our 1st Christmas together
this year,

but I know that I'm blessed enough 
for having you in my life :)

What else should I complain about?

I'm SUPER BLESSED :')

I DO love you so muchh dear ^^

Let's spend our New Years Eve together
happily and unforgettably! (",)

Miss you dear :*

- " our 10th." -

Within these 2 days, I have been falling in love with a song, as how I've always been falling in love with Kevin more every single day we pass together :)

I hardly believe that it has been 10 months since that lovely day when we started our relationship.. I'm thankful for every moments, every laughter and tears that we've been through together :)

This is the song that he gave to me several days ago.. And soon I fall in love with this song.. ^^

A THOUSAND YEARS

Heart beats fast

Colors and promises

How to be brave

How can I love when I'm afraid to fall

Watching you stand alone

All of my doubt

suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you

Darling don't be afraid

I have loved you for a thousand years

I'll love you for a thousand more

Time stands still

beauty in all she is

I will be brave

I will not let anyone take away

what's standing in front of me

Every breath, every hour has come to this

One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you

Darling don't be afraid

I have loved you for a thousand years

I'll love you for a thousand more

All along I believed

I would find you

Time has brought your heart to me

I have loved you for a thousand years

I'll love you for a thousand more..

Yes, time has brought your heart to me..

Darling don't be afraid, I'll love you for a thousand more :)

Happy 10 dear!! :D

Love you, Kevin!

Happy 8 lovely months honeyy!! ^^

Yes,

you are something special

in my heart,

in my life,

in my world.. :)

I will always love you, like I always do :*

Being with you is like a fairy tale comes true :)

Hey happy 7 sweet months dear :)

Time flies so fast!

Love you even more each day ^^

Bigggg hugggssss for my dearest :*

HAPPY SIX LOVELY MONTHS

my dearest KEVIN!! :D

 From the 1st time we started this lovely relationship,

you've always been my SWEETEST DEAR ever! ^^

I'm gonna loving you every single day 'till the day I close my eyes forever.. (",)

Heyy..

Happy 5 sweet months dear!!

Thanks for always making my days beautiful and wonderful ^^

Never knew how would my life be without you by my side :')

Love you honey :*

- "THANKS GOD I've found YOU." -

I would give up everything

before I'd separate myself from

After so much suffering

I've finally found unvarnished truth

I was all by myself for the longest time

So cold inside

And the hurt from the heart it would not subside

I felt like dying until you saved my life

Thanks God I've found you

I was lost without you

My every wish and every dream

somehow became reality

When you brought the sunlight

completed my life

I'm overwhelmed with gratitude

coz baby I'm so thankful I've found you

I would give you everything

There's nothing in this world I wouldn't do

To ensure your happiness

I'll cherish every part of you

Coz without you beside me I can't survive

don't wanna try

If you're keeping me warm each and every night

I'll be alright

Coz I need you in my life

See I was so desolate

Before you came to me

Looking back

I guess we were destined to shine

after the rain to appreciate

the gift of what we have

And I'd go through it all over again

To be able to feel this way

I never forget to keep thanking God

for He has lead me to find you.. :')

- "if a man TRULY loves you.." -

Jika seorang pria benar-benar mencintaimu,
dia akan memanjakanmu seperti anak kecil,
bahkan dia sendiri tidak tau alasan memanjakanmu seperti itu.

Jika seorang pria benar-benar mencintaimu,
dia akan senantiasa membuatmu senang,
sebab dia tidak akan membiarkanmu meneteskan air mata.

Jika seorang pria benar-benar mencintaimu,
dia akan menangis untukmu
tanpa tau mengapa dia dapat begitu lemah di depanmu.

Jika seorang pria benar-benar mencintaimu,
dia akan mengaktifkan HP 24 jam untukmu,
sebab dia mau kapan dan dimana saja kamu bisa menemukan dirinya.

Jika seorang pria benar-benar mencintaimu,
dia akan menganggapmu paling baik
dan tidak akan membandingkanmu dengan wanita lain.

Jika seorang pria benar-benar mencintaimu,
dia akan selalu menemanimu
walaupun dia sedang sibuk.

Jika seorang pria benar-benar mencintaimu,
dia tidak akan setuju kamu diet
sebab kesehatanmu menjadi prioritas utama baginya.

Jika seorang pria benar-benar mencintaimu,
dia sangat ingin hidup bersamamu
dan menghabiskan hari-harinya hanya bersamamu
sebab kamu menjadi bagian terpenting dalam hidupnya.

Jika seorang pria benar-benar mencintaimu,
dia akan mencium keningmu dengan penuh kasih sayang
dan bukan dengan nafsu.

Jika seorang pria benar-benar mencintaimu,
dia akan menyimpan segala sesuatu tentangmu di HP nya
dan akan tertawa bodoh sendiri ketika melihatnya.

Jika seorang pria benar-benar mencintaimu,
dia akan dengan sabar mendengar curhatmu saat kau sedang sedih
sebab dia tak ingin membuatmu merasa sendiri.

Thanks God for our 4! :)

- "TAKKAN terganti." -

"Meski waktu datang dan berlalu sampai kau tiada bertahan
Semua takkan mampu mengubahku
Hanyalah kau yang ada di relungku
Hanyalah dirimu mampu membuatku jatuh dan mencinta
Kau bukan hanya sekedar indah, kau tak akan terganti.."

You're irreplaceable, Kevin Oarto =)

I love you, love you, and love you more than any other girls can do..
And no other men can love me better than you do :)

I found myself loving you more and more,
every single day.
Hey, I think I'm deeply in love with you..
You're the BEST thing that ever happens in my life :)