Should I forgive him and forget everything?
Yes, maybe I SHOULD.

But CAN I do it?
Well.. I know exactly that I CAN'T.

He's too bastard to be forgiven.
And it's too hurt to be forgotten.

Every single star at the sky reminds me
how deep the pain he has made to me.

I'm really tired of struggling these feelings every day and night.

Humph.

.iHate.

Seseorang yang mencintaimu
akan membalut hatimu yang pernah terluka
dan menjaganya dengan setulus hati
agar tidak terluka lagi
dan ia akan memberikanmu yang terbaik
walau harus menyakiti hatinya sendiri…

Hopefully someday I will find that "someone"
Amen :)

- "Ms. Astrid" -

Today is my first day being a teacher. First day to be hired for doing a job. First day teaching the students in front of the classrooms.. Hehe..
I really thank God for this chance. I know that it's not such an easy job, but I promise to give my BEST!

You know, it's kinda weird to hear them calling me"Ms. Astrid" hahaha..
I work twice a week for 4 hours of 7 classes each day. It's so tiring but so fun if you decide to enjoy it..

I believe I can be a blessing for the students and even for the fellow teachers in BSC (Brilliant Study Center).. Maybe I just have less than 2 months to work there,, but I know that I may gain a lot of experience and I will never regret it.

I will work hard. I will give my maximum efforts, not only in teaching but also my study and church services. I'm trying to give my best in every aspect in my life..

I'll give the BEST, not only the GOOD (",)

wish me luck ;)

- "our CULINARY trip." -

Kmrn gw, ria, n hartono pergi wisata kuliner ke daerah puri stlh rapat RHB hehe.. Padahal gak direncanain dl sblmnya,, tiba2 aja tercetus ide gila utk pergi ke daerah puri, either utk makan ato ntn princess n d frog wkwk..

Akhirnya stlh melalui perjalanan yg agak rame lancar, kt sampe di daerah puri.. Gw ajak mereka keliling daerah pesanggrahan bwt cari makanan terjangkau.. Tiba2 mata kt "nyangkut" di bakso jawir hahaha.. Lalu di tengah gerimis kt turun pake payung di depan bakso jawir,, trus lgsg duduk mesen makanan.. Pesanan kt adalaahhhhh.. YA BAKSO LAH YAH PASTINYA,, masa gado2,, mana ada??! Huahauahuahua.. Pizzzz :P
Hehe.. Jd kt mesen 2 porsi bakso bihun gt,, ria n tono pesen yg ada bakso telor segede gabannya,, gw pesen bakso urat yg kecil2.. Pas keluar,, buset baksonya ria bener2 gede bgt,, mpe kaget liatnya hahaha.. Trus dengan pedenya kt "ngeramu" kuah baksonya,, dtambahin sambel, kecap, cuka, dsb.. Alhasil,, pedes bgt booo!!! Gila,, kt maen nuang2 aja sambelnya,, pdhal ternyata puedesnya minta ampun! Sampe2 abis makan bibir kt bertiga merah n jontor wakakakak.. Geblek abis dagh. Tp kt ga nyesel mkn dsana, krn enak bgt n harganya terjangkau hehe..
So bakso jawir is highly recommended!! TOP bgt lah hoho..

Trus kt lgsg lanjut ke sandwich bakar.. Dsana kt mesen sandwich ham yg medium ukurannya bwt dmakan bertiga.. Slama nunggu kt jg msh sempet foto2.. Biasalah cewek! haha :P

@sandwich bakar

Keluar2 dr sandwich bakar,, gw n ria kekenyangan amat sangat! wkwk.. Gak tau deh si tono kekenyangan jg ato gak wkt itu hehe..

Then kt msh lanjut lg ke puri mal sblm nganterin gw plg.. Pertama sih rencananya cm mw muter2 aja, jalan2.. Maklum ada 2 makhluk asing yg gak pernah ke mal puri hahahaha :P
Trus gw ajak mereka liat2 ke XXI nya,, niatnya sih cm MAU LIAT AJA.. Ternyataaa.. Sampe sana kt tergoda jg bwt ntn wkwkwk.. Apalagi filmnya mule jam 7 mlm, pas bgt.. Akhirnya ria nelp nyokapnya minta ijin bwt ntn, n stlh dibujuk2 nyokapnya ngijinin jg.. Trus gantian gw yg nanya ke nyokap gw blh ntn ato ga,, eh ternyata nyokap gw malah nyuruh gw pulang huhu.. Ga jadi ntn deh :(

Krn ga jd ntn, ria n tono akhirnya beli yogen crepes di foodcourt. Mrk beli yg strawberry delight.. Hmm ngiler bgt sih liatnya,, tp perut gw dah ga muat lg bwt dmasukin makanan, jd gw cm ngeliatin mrk makan aja deh hahaha :))

At last, we went home.. They took me to my house and then they went home to Pademangan :)
Well even it's just a short culinary trip, but it was soooo FUN!
And I believe that we'll make another great culinary trips later on.. More foods, more cafes, more restaurants, more more more! Eat 'till you drop!! Hahaha :P

Thanks for d culinary trip, guys ^.^

- "MAKARONI panggang =)" -

This is my cooking :D

. . m a k a r o n i p a n g g a n g . .

Hen hao chi!! hehehe..
It takes almost 2.5 hours to make it.. Pfiuh.
Tiring, but satisfying! Hihihi..

I cooked a lot,, wanna try some? :)

It's so sad
When someone you KNOW becomes someone you KNEW.
When you just walk passing him
like he's never been a big part in your life..
How you used to be able to talk to him for hours,,
and spent the days together..

and now..
You can't barely even look at him.

Pfiuh. What a life.

When someone hurts you,
cry a river,
construct a bridge,
and then CROSS it!!

- "Aku tak mau sendiri." -

Sejak ia pergi dari hidupku
Dia tinggalkanku sendiri disini
tanpa satu yang pasti

Aku tak tau harus bagaimana
Aku merasa tiada berkawan
Selain diriMu, selain cintaMu

Kirim aku malaikatMu
biar jadi kawan hidupku
Dan tunjukkan jalan yang memang kau pilihkan untukku

Kirim aku malaikatMu
karna kusepi berada disini
Dan di dunia ini aku tak mau sendiri..

Tanpa terasa kuteteskan air mata ini
Yang tiada berhenti mengiringi kisah di hati

Aku tak tau harus bagaimana
Aku merasa tiada berkawan
Selain diriMu, selain cintaMu

Kirim aku malaikatMu
biar jadi kawan hidupku
Dan tunjukkan jalan yang memang Kau pilihkan untukku

Kirim aku malaikatMu
karna kusepi berada disini
Dan di dunia ini aku tak mau sendiri..